Schizophrenic BlissA Story by EliazarAs I
sit here in my room at almost midnight trying to come up with something to write,
I think about my friend who says that I have the potential to be a good writer.
My older and better friend, “Self-doubt”, steps into my vision from the corner
of my eye and mocks me for thinking so highly of myself. It tells me that I do
not have what it takes to write something that a well-functioning person would
like. I think about this for a second and then remember how existence does not
truly have a meaning. I know I’ll write something horrifyingly unappealing, but
it won’t really matter so I might as well keep pushing. Finding motivation in
my existential dread, I continue writing and notice how I’ve written an entire
paragraph with complete faith in myself. HA! In
your face, Self-doubt. With a
sense of accomplishment I carry on typing and feel ecstatic about all the ideas
I can pursue in this writing. As I consider using complex allegories to appear
intellectually superior to my peers, another one of my friends comes to greet
me. This time it is my beloved “Ego” who is in desperate need of being
inflated. Ironically, it urges me to fill this paragraph with a beautiful
message about being humble. People appreciate humbleness and that would really
inflate my Ego. I tell my overbearing friend that I will do nothing of the sort
because I modestly believe in writing for the sake of writing. As Confucius beautifully
puts it, “He who speaks without modesty will find it difficult to make his
words good.” No. I am not going to listen to you, Ego. I now feel rearing to go with a burning desire akin to what Alexander the Great must’ve felt when he practically took over the world. Almost
as if waiting for the right time, my pal “Laziness” slaps me across the face
and demands attention. I refuse to pay it any heed, instead I make sure to not needlessly
drag this paragraph and continue writing, to make words, to make sentences, to
make paragraphs, because paragraphs make writings and that is what I’m trying
to do here and not at all dragging things along. You’re not getting any attention from me, Laziness. Tired and weary, I decide to have a conversation with my
visiting friends. I let Self-doubt, Ego and Laziness know that they have no
power over me and that I am a man who cannot be controlled, try as hard as you
may. I am the master of my fate. I am the captain of my soul. They happily nod
in unison and sing songs of praise for me.
In a schizophrenic bliss, I finally decide to stop typing. © 2017 EliazarFeatured Review
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