Trials of Tartarus

Chapter Fifteen 

Dear Moon,

I know I have absolutely no right to be writing to you anymore. Not after what I did. At first all I could think was that it was just the trials.. That’s all. But when the silence set in I believed it.

Did I really Could I really kill you and our child? It shouldn’t be possible. Years ago for us, weeks for them, I would’ve said no. Now… Now I don’t know.

Something weird is going on here. Something that has to do with Cal… She’s… different. I hope that she’s okay, but I don’t think she is. Something’s wrong with her, and I intend to find out. Even if it kills me.

Because I’d rather die helping a friend than die in the trials. But we’ve been over this. Over the ways of death. The thing is Moon, I think I’ve already died. And there’s nothing I can do to stop it.

I feel so… empty. And Cal, Cal seemed to change the second I did. I think that she’s noticed it too. She doesn’t even wanna be around me anymore. I can’t say that I blame her, I wouldn’t want to be around me either. I’d want to be so, so far away. But here I am.

• Mutt

P.S. Fire and ice shall battle again