me

I need a night to myself

where the empty space around me

unfolds like a forest

of my own mind

growing with every solitary hour

luscious, intricate

a world which I will never get bored of

never finish exploring

I need this evening

to reclaim what's me

too many voices, too many people

bombarding me with guilt, sadness, wants

of what I was and they still want me to be

of what they need from me

but I whisper

nothing is ever lost, it just changes 

I don't want to be in love tonight 

I don't want to be invaded

the cavalry of my mind is armed

they patrol the borders of my skin

each step the footprints

reclaim what is me

and wipe this skin free

of caresses and kisses

each step, draw me further into my own world

and here

serenity

lucidity

creation

love is banned from my world tonight

I can hear her flames licking the door

but I need to be able to see

for one night

when I look in the mirror

only one face

Author's Note

diary entry