What More Could I Have Done?

Now when I say your name it feels like fire on my tongue

The lips that you once kissed tremble with sadness

I am haunted by the memories I can't seem to forget

I am burdened with the hope you keep instilling in me whenever you look my way

I am crazy to think you regret the chance you did not take

But once in awhile I see the sorrow I am feeling reflected in your brown green eyes

My hands are cold because they grew use to you holding them whenever you had the chance

My mind is full of all the things I could say out loud to you

But now that you are gone they sit there and torture me with their complexity

I cry when I see a sky without stars because I no longer have you to help me make something just as beautiful as the balls of gas that usually litter the sky

Help me to understand why I was not worth the risk?

Please let me comprehend why I was not something you wanted to discover.

You take so many chances

Jump into so many situations

But I was the one you had to pass up on

And now I have to lay in my cold bed and wonder what I could have offered that would have made you want me

What more could I have given to get you try to be with me?

You were a fleeting moment

And I know that I will never get to relive you

But damn if I don't try to.

Author's Note

I am trying to gain confidence with my writing. Tell me if I am doing something, but be gentle.