Selfish

I cant continue being this unhappy

I need to stop worrying 

and focus more on me

and what I'm doing 

I wanted to be first on your list

but I didn't want this 

and I cant believe you allowed me

to be this selfish 

I think I need to take a minute

just to step back

and make a better choice

one better than my last

I know I’ve wanted you this bad

but i think I'm in love with someone from my past

and I don't think you’re that man

not anymore

my loves been an act of selfishness

so how can I even be mad?

like damn, I'm thinking about my actions now

and I cant even remember what it was I thought we had

I guess I was just hungry for validation

and the thought of you with someone else

was something I couldn't let happen

I know my worth

but lifes not a movie

no one is above being told

being told they're not the one 

and then maybe this is an act of love

finally admitting I'm not the one

and letting you go to find him

and then doing the same for me 

funny how you can be so blind

I might feel a little sad

but give it some time

I don't see why we both wont be alright 

Reviews

[PoeticChico]

you grabbed my attention immediately, some of us have experience this; from either side. when I read the line:
"I wanted to be first on your list"
I instantly screamed at the screen "NO!" ha, it was a GREAT REACTION. I guess because like I mentioned I've been there and i learned that self care/love is so important before any relationship. overall great poem. thanks for sharing!

My favorite lines:
"funny how you can be so blind
I might feel a little sad
but give it some time
I don't see why we both wont be alright"

[Marcus Medrano]

oh thank you alex you are so nice!

[Ella]

Wow. This is really powerful.

[BThomvanWart]

The title caught my attention, and the writing went where I wasn't fully expecting it would go! It's funny how sometimes, we can look at someone and go "I want you because I want you" and think that's love only to realize "Well...damn. This isn't what I wanted after all!" But, I like the resolution of the poem because choosing to let someone go rather than lead them on more would be fully selfish. The poem itself, that's how life is. You can't proceed without being a little self centered once in a while and a little selfish here and there. It's a nice read, and a smooth flow.