Now

I am trying to live in the moment, yet always feel like I am missing something.

Tick tock tick tock says the mirror looking back at me I don’t know why I feel rushed.  I grew up, I went to college, I got married, I had kids, I got divorced,

          And

NOW

What?  What am I doing?  I don’t want my kids to rush growing up I still have so much to do with them.  Travel, shop, school work, watch their sports, dry tears, 

 And

NOW

I joined Crossfit tm, I work out on my own, I eat right, I pay my bills on time, I go to my empowering group,  I care for my elderly mom,

And

NOW

Now is when I should feel okay but now I feel uncertain, did I do the right thing, did I say the right thing, did I make the right decision,

 And

THEN

I ran between work and the kids schools, the sports, the fields, the grocery store, 

And

THEN

I didn't work out, I didn't eat right, I was late on my bills, I became isolated, I hardly saw my mom,

And

THEN

I wasn't happy, I wanted peace, I wanted calm, I wanted real friends, I wanted to be included,

And

NOW

I AM content, I AM were I should be, I AM living in the moment, I AM me

FINALLY

Author's Note

I am playing around.....not even sure this should be in poetry but it seems to fit there best..... Constructive criticism welcome as is ideas on how to continue!

Reviews

[Michael G.]

I enjoyed reading these poetic thoughts. Yes, it is indeed poetry. Continue as always with what is in your heart and mind.

[EileenMarie]

Thanks :) Its definitely a work in progress!

[MOON]

Living in the moment only place to be but hard to do. , lovely write

[EileenMarie]

Thank you........ it is constantly trial and error!

[afra]

i enjoyed it ...well done

[EileenMarie]

Thanks Afra :) I still feel it could be SO much better but I am having difficulty getting my thoughts together today..... I will work on it later!

[Marie]

This sets up a poetry form; it's not conventional, but that's not important. It's a setting for your feelings. You could add another verse or verses about what you want your future to be as compared with your past and your present.

[EileenMarie]

Thanks! I took your advice..... I like it now but I still feel like its missing something......maybe later I will revisit it!