cold turkey

story of my life.. days of anger.. backfire at lowlifes.. then realise that nothing can be changed, only experienced

cold turkey

waking to the night revelling in starlight

find the way out of here

down the chains hit the water

bright

the darkness is everything

the darkness is light

expected to stay the same

drop a bomb

be yourself

alive

this is what I'm made of

brunt of steel and machine

sleeping to be dormant

cold turkey

watching tragedy

breathing your blasphemy

constrictions all bottled up

emotion and energy

anything but scared

but I don't seem to care

elusive observant patience designs

light light light light

light

I'm passive aggressive don't cross the lines

it ain't pretty

when you least expect

and I ain't pretty

Reviews

[Great Aunt Astri]

Effector, I am sure you don't feel this way all the time. But your stark words made a good poem. I like the way 'bright', 'alive', and 'light', take up a whole line. Nice!

[Effector Prime]

thanks dude.. :) who isn't (bottled up)? lol it's ironic though that I should end up writing this.. because, if there's anything I'm not, it's "bottled up". that's not how I roll.. but my life would've been less rigid if I was (bottled up). somehow, I'm glad I wasn't and am not. I despise holding back.. unless it's for good happy surprises.. my best friend bottling it up and holding back from me threw me on a very dangerous journey for the next 10 years (that had come to pass).. when the "bottle" broke 10 years ago I realised that I had no friend in the first place and should find the rest of the way alone. there's nothing wrought really if you feel alive.. for the light you signify could be so exuberant that it could throw your friends into insecurity.. and suspicion.. WHAM! and a punch in your face for absolutely no f*g reason but for the fact that you had earned f*rs' f*g admiration .. thanks for your lovely review Astri :) rock on!

[Great Aunt Astri]

You sound like a true survivor. You should bask in your individuality. Keep writing.

[Effector Prime]

yeah I did (survive).. that's what took her from me.. and today she's, gone.. maybe if I didn't survive I wouldn't have had to endure this, this. writing is the only reason I live for now.. not for fun not for love not for sex not for children not for joy.. just meds and.. writing :) peace

[Great Aunt Astri]

I believe you have a huge future ahead of you 'She' must have been very special, but even survivors can more on. I wish you well.

[Effector Prime]

thank you Astri :) and likewise :)