Soldier's Memoria (Dear Brother)

I'm breathing cigarettes, and blowing smoke like a dragon,

Because things keep weighing heavy on the mind.

Throwing back whiskey, intentionally trying to get dazed,

It gives the right kind of feeling I need to think about the good old days,

When we stayed up all night just to talk about nonsense,

And laughed without worries, while we forgot about all of our problems.

But now troubles' all I got, can't help but to miss you guys a lot.

Tell me how did you know, that it was right die in battle?

The last time you saw your kid she was still feeding on a bottle.

Lord knows I see no worth in playing hero.

They praised you once, but truth is people really care zero,

About something that happened far too long to be remembered.

But then again, resting in peace might be better than living with this guilt on your chest.

The immovable pain that walks around in your shadow,

Leaves you feeling possessed, by a ghost in a rain filled with sorrow,

You're not even the least bit obsessed with living for tomorrow.

Can't even look at fireworks without clinging to a gun,

Without you this Christmas I don't now what I'll become.

I'm a hopeless mess when I'm awake,

Can't tell what's real and what's fake,

So please ask God to send me angels before I make a big mistake.

You see, these pills don't work, they're only there comfort.

They don't stop the flashbacks, like grenades, every night you go under the covers.

Dear brother, did you die to be forgiven?

Oh what a righteous world we live in.

With you gone, I don't see a friend anymore,

Life is as cold as your blood on the floor.

Dear sister what's it like to be in heaven?

Do they have wild flower beds as you like them?

Nipping at the buds too young,

Hope I get to see you there when I get Home.