Count By Five

When I was five
I loved my family
I hated spiders

When I was five
I didn't know anything
I didn't feel pressure

When I was ten
I loved my family
I hated myself

When I was ten
I didn't know why
I didn't feel normal

When I was fifteen
I loved a boy
I hated myself

When I was fifteen
I didn't know how
I didn't feel okay

Now I still hate spiders
I love my family
I'm working on loving myself
I know I'm not "normal"
But I also know I'm not evil
For being a boy