Lost

As lost as I am, walking through these halls, the tears still fall. The hurt is inevitable. The walls close in as I think of your touch, the room spins at the thought of your scent.

I rake my hands down the wall as I fall.

But the question is, where am I falling? Is it for you or the eternal abyss I feel near you?

There are no answers to my enquiries; no answers to my pleas for help.

I lay upon the floor loking up at the complex system of dots on the ceiling. I begin to wonder, am I alone here? Am I to be missed when I loose myself?

I think of you as I close my eyes, close my eyes to lock out the bad. To stop the images of you loving me. I remember you holding me, safe away from the pain of the world. Yet, now I am open for the world to attack as I think of everything going on around me. I feel alone, lost, confused.

Why do I feel this way? Why do I miss you when I was the one who ran away?

Can you help me? Can anyone help me?

Is there even anyone left here in this lifeless shell to help?

I should think not. For I have escaped all that was me, I relequished the pain.Detached myself from body and mind. I am simply a shell for the souls around me. I will await quietly for the end of the blessed abyss and solitude of my escape.

I will wait patiently for my death, may it be in seconds or decades, I will wait as patiently for it as I did for you. As I'm sure will have just as much avail as you my love. For even though you see me day to day, I am no longer here. No longer a toy that you had created. I am am gone, as you said to me after every I love you, forever.

Author's Note

Just venting about some junk going on, just dramatised it alot more! Ignore poor grammar please.

Reviews

[WriterMe]

Wow, that was very interesting. Insightful in a way. I wonder what you were thinking about, because you portrayed your thoughts very creatively. Venting out? You did not dramatize it in anyway. I think it was great =]