I am me

A Poem by EJ1

I always play hard to get
Although I don't really mean it
My heart was been guarded for quite a while
An unlikely trait that will never go out of style

Approach me and I'll give off a Vibe
Of unfriendliness that makes you run and hide
Something that you just don't know though,
I'm scared of love, and how far it can go

How do I know I can trust you?
Why do I avoid pathways with beautiful morning dew?
Why can't I say the simple words that always ring true?
You make me happy and I like being around you.

The longer your around me, the more embarrassed I get
Scared to express my emotions that always lead to regret
My face can't hide the truth, yet I deny
Any longing to be around you, running as far as I can to let out a heavy sigh

How long can I keep up this game
I don't mean to push everyone away
I'm scared that if the right one came along
I'd revert to my old ways, afraid to accept, even If I know I'm wrong

For if compassion does come near
I hope I can swallow my fear
Because those who stay with emotions stone cold
Will discover a person with a heart made of pure gold

During time after, I will look back
Look at the reasons and carry the sack
Which holds all the memories, the good and the bad
And hope that those memories that I can be glad

But until that day...

So I like to be alone, but is that an illusion
Unfortunately, I don't know but, maybe it's a conclusion
Of the events that await, see
But until that day, I'm just happy being me