Late Night Rant

Just some thoughts that were going through my mind late at night... Not really a story. Just some raging I had to get out.

You watched me crumble before your eyes and yet you didn't say a word. You knew that everything was changing but you didn't care. I called you my best friends. Now I realize you don't care. Sometimes I think you never cared. You pushed me around, called me names, thinking that I could take the blows, and for a while I did. I took everything you said or did to me in silence. Then, the one time I retaliated, the moment I decided I couldn't take it anymore, it was you that was mad at me. You now hate me for just uttering that one word. Here I am, being stupid like you always said I was, wanting all of you to come back. I guess everything you said about me was true. Are you happy that you've finally broken me? As soon as you walked away everyone else started leaving too. Now I am alone. I still sit next to you guys at lunch but no one talks to me. Nobody even looks at me. It's like I am invisible. Even after you left you are still hurting me. Mission accomplished. You did it. You got me to hate myself even more than I already did. I feel like I did something wrong. He says that I don't need you guys. I want to believe that but I can't. I'm locked in my mind blaming myself. Well... At least you are now free of me and my "drama"...