For My Sister....Shanice

I Cried when i wrote this....R.I.P. Shanice, I miss you and I've never met you

For My Sister

 

 

First let me apologize

Because I’ve been writing for years

And I have yet to write about you

Maybe I wasn’t ready to release these tears

From my eyes

So many days fall behind me

And you can still find me

Wondering what you would have been like

Just knowing that all my wrongs would have been your right

Sometime I gaze at our mother

In order to discover

A fictitious portrait

Of what you would have looked like

Often I wonder what your hits would have felt like

What your woman advice would have sound like

And if I would mess up your potential date

Because mom left you to baby sit at night

And when I am out alone

I may roam

To a crowded area

And I believe I am staring at ya

But it’s just another woman around your age

With a complexion of the sun

Sometime I get to know a woman for a while

And she begins to call me her sister

Then I have to resist her

Because I can only have one

I’ve never asked our mother what your name would have been

I’m going to wait until I have a daughter

It hurts my heart

Because when I am meeting some one

And that first good conversation start

They ask me

Do you have a sister?

And all I can think is

Why didn’t they say “brothers and sisters?”

I could deal with that

And a smile goes back

To a straight face

As I face that question

And I answer with the least amount of detail

You are my guardian angel

I know that for a fact

Because the fact

Is, my mom was only going to have two kids

It would have been you and my older brother

But you played the role of an older sister

Before you even knew me

And made the ultimate sacrifice

And waited for the next life

You let me live this one

I owe you more than life

And I will make you a few promises

I will treat women with respect in the name of you

I know how much my mom wanted you to be here

So when I have a daughter it will be named after you

And even if I get amnesia, no matter what I do

I will never forget about you

My Sister

 

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First let me apologize
Because I've been writing for years
And I have yet to write about you
Maybe I wasn't ready to release these tears

I adore your opening lines and I really like the emotion put into this, i can feel the heartache as well so well written and well expressed.