Inpatient Lullaby

Written: 01/03/15

Hey, I'm just texting you because I just couldn't fall asleep.
And wanted to tell you a secret my heart can no longer keep.
It might not be the right time since it's late and the night is deep,
But I need to get this off my chest before I break down and start to weep.

Under this warm blanket wondering why I can't get you out my head.
And how in the morning, you're my only motive to get out of bed.
Nights without a single wink because I'm thinking about everything you've said.
Thinking I have insomnia because I rather be talking to you all night instead.

Everynight I toss and turn in a bed that normally feels like a cloud.
It's only at night when the silence in my bedroom sounds extremely loud.
Yet I still manage to roll out of bed feeling energenic, carefree and proud.
Never letting anything bother me during the day and just following the crowd.

When the sun sets, a sudden feeling of sadness fills inside me so blue.
Because it's almost like every little thought allows me to think of you.
And when that happends I forget to remember everything I knew.
How I'm just a friend and I how I wish that I was something more to you.

Around midnight every ten minutes just checking my phone.
Always debating if I should text you first or just leave you alone.
Trying to paint a picture of you in my head that my mind creates on its own.
So that when I sleep, a smile will be the only facial expression that's shown.

The messages I have of you are the ones I never dare to delete.
If you ever need me, text and I'll reply in a sincere heart beat.
I'd be here listening even if I our conversation isn't complete.
Make you happy enough to bring the heavens down to your feet.

Texting you at night is the only thing I look foward to from the start.
It's the only thing that can ease the pain everytime were apart.
The words that I see on this phone are the lullabys to my heart.
The thought of you caring is enough for me into my dreams depart.

My dreams are dark and I'm never able to see them because you're the light.
You iluminate my dreams and my reality that
leads me to poems for me to write.
Like a shooting star that grants all my wishes that last until it's out of sound and sight.
So all I ask is for you to help me sleep and dream or atleast for just one more night.

Your my favorite hello but your my least favorite goodbye.
To be absolutely everything you need is something I could try.
Love you until were under the earth where our bodies should lie.
Just for you to have everything you ever desired, I would die.

I'm in love with you, and it feels good to finally let it out like sinners to purify.
But if I don't feel the same love back my illness will allow my germs to mulitply.
The illness of feeling alone and your the only person I know that can possibly qualify.
You hold the cure but tonight I'm just an inpatient child who needs a lullaby.

Reviews

[R Smith]

well written Daniel, I can still remember this feeling of needing to speak of my feeling's for my love although we lacked the speed of texting back then lol, so I can only imagine how it must feel today to have that power to put into words so quickly your desires, I bet sometimes hasty words flow but overall here you have expressed your desires and made them into a great poem, very well done my friend :)

[Daniel Valentine Rivera]

Your review was much appreciated. Thanks you so much.

[barleygirl]

Good job of showing us how it can be to be addicted to another person. I find this situation sad, but also common -- especially these days in the realm of love-via-texting. Being alone & having only texted words seems to lend itself to this type of self-absorption (it's really more about self, than the other person), which you've described so well. I think the poem is kinda long & repetitive (altho you've found creative & artful ways of saying the same thing over & over), & this aspect of the poem reflects the nature of being obsessed in a texting relationship.

[Anonymous]

You are really good at writing rhyming poems that flow! I am horrible at writing rhyming poems, so I truly admire that quality in a writer! I really liked this poem!

[Daniel Valentine Rivera]

Thank You! I try to incorporate a rhyme scheme in almost all my poems because I feel this way people won't get bored of my writing. A tip for writing rhyming poems is to think of the rhyming words ahead of time before you get into what you really want to say. Thanks again for the wonderful review. :)

[Anonymous]

Thanks for the good advice and you're welcome! :)