About two weeks ago, I was out and about as I usually am, running a few errands. I made a stop to my nearest grocery store to
pick up a few things. As I was walking
to the entrance, I noticed a person, a male standing near the entrance. As I got closer, I heard him say,"Excuse
me Ma'am."
I turned around to see a
slender, slightly unkempt gentleman trying to get my attention. I already knew what he wanted after quickly
observing his demeanor. Rushing to get
to the door so I could get in and get out, I briefly turned around and said,"Yes?"and he replied, "Would you happen to have any extra
change so I may get me something to eat?"
Nowadays.these are
common scenarios. There are pan handlers
everywhere. In front of stores, on the
corners, and even in the street at stoplights.
Sometimes without even hearing what they have to say I brush them off
most of the time because I don't feel like dealing with them. And sure enough just like I thought, this
gentleman was asking for money. But for
some strange reason, I noticed the sincerity in his eyes. At
that moment I felt the Holy Spirit gently whisper to me,"help
him." But as usual, I walked past him, shook my head and replied,"I'm
sorry, I don't." I walked into the grocery store, got my few things
and walked out on the opposite entrance so I wouldn't have to interact with him
again.
On the drive home I kept thinking about it. For some reason, I couldn't get this man's
face out of my mind. I immediately felt
convicted and sad that I didn't help him.
I couldn't really understand why out of all the panhandlers I say no to,
this one weighed heavy on me. I knew
then that it was because I didn't listen to what the Holy Spirit told me to do,
and I was sorry.
Friday morning, I remembered the situation again, I thought about how it
wouldn't have taken much for me to give him the change from my coin purse. I brushed the thoughts off and just went
about my day. Later that day, I again
was out and about running errands, the same grocery store was on my list of
places to go to pick up some snacks. As
I was looking for places to park (the lot was unusually packed), I had to park
further away from the entrance. As I pulled
into my parking space, I saw a man a few feet away from my car. I took a quick glance and I knew it was him!
I was shocked! And I was surprisingly happy! I got out of my car and heard, "Excuse
me Ms., would you mind sparing some..." Before he could finish, I
smiled and asked him if he was the same guy that I saw in front of the grocery
store the previous week. He said yes and
I chatted with him for a bit, asking him how he was doing . I told him that instead of giving him money,
I would get him something to eat. He
smiled and said he would wait by my car for me to return. I walked into the grocery store smiling
because I knew I had the opportunity to do things right this time. I got what I needed and I bought a footlong
sandwhich, 2 chocolate chip cookies and a soda.
As I was walking back to my car, there he was, still standing there. When he turned around and saw me handing him
his food, he started laughing with excitement.
I had never seen anyone so happy! I don't think that he believed that I
would actually buy him food. He thanked
me, took the food and walked away. I got
in my car and noticed as he was walking away he did a little fist pump and
mouthed "YES!" I drove off and he waved at me again as he saw me
leave.
This may not mean much to many, but to me this was monumental. At first I thought that this was a mere
coincidence but then I realized that no, God orchestrated this. He gave me a second chance. He taught me a lesson. He used me to be a blessing to His child. And although I was disobedient the first
time, He gave me a second chance all the while teaching me how important it is
to give. I was overcome with emotion and
my heart was SO full because of the realization that God loved me so much that
He gave me a second chance to do things right.
All this man wanted was to eat. God
has blessed me with so much, what would it take away from me to help him? My
Dad always used to say, "We get to give to get to give to get to
give..." It's an ongoing cycle. Ultimately,
God blesses us to be a blessing to someone else.
I am sharing this story of mine, because I was inspired from the different
stories I have read from the group called IAM Group Limited (Ltd.) Yokohama,
Japan, Korea. I believe I can be of
help, by sharing my story because they have a lot of members from Asia, Korea,
Singapore, Thailand and Malaysia. IAM
group Limited ( Ltd.) Yokohama, Japan welcomes all to join their group and also
are willing to help you create your own IAM Group to help alleviate poverty.