How Much?

How Much?

A Poem by R. A. Duarte

How much I wanted to speak the world about you. How much I wanted to hold you close. We stood together so many times that I felt as if my desires were true. I was happy with you near; so pleasant and content I feared not the uncertainty of the world for you and your love was the only certainty necessary for my living.

 
It was that one day when I saw you under the true that I knew I could be with you. That one day when I alone understood that the world was available for me, yet the only commodity I longed for and desired was your warm embrace and tender kiss
 
How much I wanted to tell you these things; how much I wanted to say I loved you. I would sing it at every corner and think it at every pause. It was a reality finally come true. You were perfect and wanted nothing more.
 
How much I wanted to speak the truth about where we were and who we were. How much I wanted to scream yet for all the pleasantries and all desires, I never could confess the truth.
 
How much I wanted to does not speak to how much I lacked. How much I wanted to does not speak to how much I failed. I knew I loved you and I know I still do. But as time passed I could not break my own silence. I could not tell you the truth.
 
I loved you so much. Why is it only now I may utter such truths; when they are painful and saturated with bitter memories? I have failed you, my love, and my failures have pushed you away. I tried so hard yet could not escape what I have become.
 
How much I wanted to speak the truth about how much I loved you. How much I now regret my own failure.

© 2008 R. A. Duarte


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R. A. Duarte
R. A. Duarte

Here and There, CA



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Writing is something i just enjoy. It is a pleasant outlet for emotions, thoughts, and opinions. I've been doing off and on writing since i was very young playing with my Legos creating storylines. .. more..

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