Nostalgic Excursions

Inspired by Kafka's short stories; longing, childlike imagination travels and heart tears. *Image is a pop art drawing I drew called Crying Your Heart Out.

Feeling more alone with the people that I know 

(as well as my own shadow) than among a pack of strangers.

We're prisoner's of the heart. Growing up turns us all into ghosts.

If only a boy knew his own heart

as well has he knows his own darkness.

Crushed by reality, clouds of dream overshadow misadventure.

You make me wish that I could vanish into thin air

or go to some magical land. Somewhere, where all this

as never been and where I've never existed.

If only your love was as reliable as despair,

and not as changeable as the weather.

My tears are made of words falling into blankets of stars.

(Without you) I want to feel alive within the shadows of yesterday.

(Around You) I want to travel to the furthest reaches of the ghost of life.

Your unsaid feelings are the tears that cover hillsides of trees with mist.

A mess of romance and destruction, we're all a mess of the people 

and things we knew. Even though the pieces of what we've loved and lost,

are all that makes us feel alive. Distinguishing us from our shadows.

Author's Note

http://drowningbywords.deviantart.com/gallery/#/diiyqx

Reviews

[Dandy in the Underworld]

"If only a boy knew his own heart
as well has he knows his own darkness."
That made it for me. I mean, that was the line I read and it made the light above my head shatter into a million little pieces.
I drifted with this poem, back into something old. Back to a time when I was trying to figure out my own heart and life and actually made me reflect on the decisions I wish I had made. It takes a moving piece to do that, Russell. It really does. This is your most refreshing poem yet. It's different from your others. I can't pinpoint what it is, but it is. It's so...fresh.

[A.Lee]

I really loved the second and fourth stanzas. How sad, but still very thoughtful... Great work, as usual.

[NoneOfYourBusiness akaK..]

exquisite visuals open each aspect of humans overcomplicating things that are so intrinsically simple~
deeply affecting poetic~

[deeps]

This is amazing, i like this write alot

[Restlesslittlesoul]

You have a new fan of your poetry.

I really loved the previous I commented on, and I love this one.

More important than the fact that it is beautifully writtem it is the fact that is moves me. Some forms of art have that power, others do not.
Cannot really explain why it is so; it just is.

This moves me. That is all I basically want from poetry, and art in general.

"If only a boy knew his own heart
as well has he knows his own darkness."

I could have written this! Would have to replace "boy" with "girl"...
And I could totally have written this.

No wonder that it is moves me deeply.

[Paris France]

The last part best by far, you inserted a nifty little truth there. All in all it was good piece, excellent word choice too. Keep it up and the drawing as well.
God bless ; )

[bbb]

...growing up turns us all into ghosts...one of my many favorite parts of this poem. This is a very truthful, honest venture into the heart. This was also something I could strongly relate to, an affirmation of my life and all that's a part of it. I love this.

[Brittany]

This is a gem. You had me at the begining and kept me until the end. It breathes Camus, with undertones of Conrad. Our hearts can be the darkest place we truly venture into. You've really stripped yourself down on this one, exposing a torment that many are too inclined to hide. Very well done. (Your "if only"s brilliantly tie the piece together, by the way)