I'm On The Verge Of A Breakdown.

I lie in bed and drift away into the memories we had here.
All the smiles.
All the kisses.
All the laughs.
All the conversations.
Everything.
As I lie here, feeling empty without you by my side
I drift away into those memories.
Those were the happiest times of my life.
Those were the moments I cherished.
I wish you knew how much those moments meant to me.
I wish you knew how much you mean to me.
I wish you knew how much pain I'm still in.
I wish you knew how much I love you.
If you only knew how I still refuse to admit you're gone.
If you only knew how I die a little inside whenever we talk.
If you only knew how much I really miss you.
If you only could feel the pain I'm feeling right now.
It's so hard to try and move on.
It's so hard to talk to you and not say I love you or I miss you.
It's so hard to think that you never wanted me to break your heart,
and in the end you ended up breaking mine into a million pieces.
You stole my heart, and without you even knowing, you still have it.
I lie here, wondering if you even miss me.
I lie here, wondering if you even loved me.
I lie here, and wonder what the hell went wrong.
I'm falling apart.
Forever and ever the scars of my broken heart will remain.