Behind This Fake Smile.

The smile that you see,
is not a smile.
This smile that you see,
is fake.
It's just a cover up for how
I'm dying on the inside.
I try and hide the pain.
I try and believe I'm over this.
I try to be happy.
But, I'm just so hurt.
I try to get over you.
But, it's not working.
Every time I believe I'm over you,
you just pop back into my head.
Over and over.
Nothing is right anymore.
I feel like I'm nothing.
I feel like I'm empty.
My heart aches.
But, your heart seems fine.
It's like I was the one thing holding you back.
Did you even mean the words you said?
Did you mean all the "I love you's"?
I meant every word I said.
I meant every "I love you."
Do you realize the pain you've put me through?
Do you realize how my life's been without you?
Do you realize that you were the only good thing in my life when my life's been s**t?
I wish you were in my shoes to feel the pain I'm feeling.
I may seem okay on the outside,
but, behind this fake smile,
I'm a complete wreck.

Reviews

[Leon Agnew]

Your poetry is an outburst of raw emotion, not unlike mine. In your emotion lies talent, learn to use it. Your skill will only grow from here on out - nice.