Bleeding

my heart has been hurting.
im down on my knees.
the pain i feel no one can see.

i try to be happy,
to laugh and to smile.

but inside my soul is crying,
it has been torn,

beaten.

left only are scars.

bleeding.

bleeding, aching.
my lungs, no air can reach.

it feels as though some one is ripping my heart out.
and at the same time suffocating me.
and yet, when i am ready to leave.
to lay down and sleep forever.
they bring me back to life.

pain.
anger.
suffering.
i continue to breath,
continue the heart beat.

bleeding.

no one can see this.
no one notices.
no one cares.

for those who should care the most.
are those inflicting.

my soul is aching.
my screams, whispered under my breath.
no one hears.

i have fallen down, and i wish that
i need not rise.
but oh how they drag me,
grab my soul and rench it from me
again.
words.
weapons.
no one can see this.
my soul is torn,

beaten.

bleeding.

should that it mend?
should that it suffer this again and again?
no.
but it will.

because this is pain that no one can see.
my soul is dying.

slowly.

i dont know how much more i can take.
how many times i will fall into the darkness.

this is pain no one can see.
unkown pain, unknown fear.

unknown bleeding.

unkown...me