Soul's.Inseam.Reaped.Whole

A Poem by MidNight

the/literary.representation.of.the.soul.reaping.what.is.sowed.

the.Twilight.is.nether.above.or.beneath.me,,nor.is.it.on.the.rise.as.it.decieves.me.freely

i.sit.staring.prepared.not.for.glory,but.for.something.different,i.knw.its.something.less

Showered.Dressed..cold,.lonely.and.tired--i.confess,this.is.not.what.i.once.dreamed,...

Could.it.be.i.was.wrong??..All.along,.was.it.I.that.was.wrong............I.sit.staring.openly

Not.yet.....i.say,,

Its.not.my.time.to.Die.

But.why.then.do.i.feel.so.dead

Am.i.Not.ALIVE???

am.i.not..........myself...

HELP!..once.came.as.a.scream,a.sudden.instinct,a.blasting.Release

help....once.was.a.reason.to.keep.going...keep.trying...keep.breathing.....i.lay.dieing...

Be.it.not.real,,a.hoax,,a.game,,a.real.Lie,,..In.belief.until.the.final.moment.of.my.dreams..when.i.wake.and.realize.what.is,,and.heartachingly,,what.is.not...The.Real.lie,.i.realize,.is.in.the.mirror....musnt.it.be.scratched,fogged,tainted,robbed,..allow.me.to.see.clearer,.guiding.light.casted.upon.these.eyes.so.as.to.let.me.see.WHAT.I.REALLY.AM.

the.world.is.blind.

as.i.sit.watching,.denial.my.greatest.allie

self-loathing.worn.as.a.hood.shielding.me.from.the.rain.of.my.own.tears

my.own.fears,.my.bloody.being.is.tearing.apart.before.me.as.i.lay.dieing.awake....as.i.lay.lieing.to.myself....as.i.lay.vanishing...fading....wasting.away...

What.treason.have.i.committed?

Why.was.i.made.this.way.......so.naturally.unnatural.,,.totally.unaccepted.by.all.that.is.around.me.....my.heart,,pounds.inside.my.chest.caved.in.and.depressed,,i.confess---this.is.not.what.i.once.dreamed.

THIS.IS.NOOOOOOOOOOOOOTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT

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mysoulsinseamreaped.whole.