This I Believe

 

There are some days in life that everything seems to go perfectly. Maybe it’s getting a date with a person that you really like, or maybe it’s just receiving a compliment that makes you feel great, but that day just stands out in your mind as amazing. Unfortunately, to counteract the good, there is the bad, which brings days where everything seems to go according to Murphy’s Law. Arguments, heartbreak, and death seem to plague these times, clinging and adding to the misery until it threatens to overcome even the sturdiest of minds. It is on these days that I simply lay, curled up, on top of my bed, staring at the ceiling and trying pointlessly to find images in the blurred paint. I cannot imagine continuing to live with this emotion the next day, let alone the next week, or the next month, or the next year. Yet no matter what thoughts run through my head, somehow in the morning, I find the strength to get up and make my way through that day, maybe not happily, but at least alive. Somehow, even in the worst moments that life can give me, I can remember the faces of my friends, my family, and everyone that I love, and know that they are there for me. I know that one day – maybe not in the next week, maybe not even in the next month, but one day – I will be happy again. I believe that love can bring me through anything, whether it be the kind of arguments that I think can never be resolved, or a heartache that seems to last forever, or even the death of someone that I held dear. This ability to love has made me believe in something else as well: that I am completely in charge of my own destiny. Sure, maybe at one moment I am miserable, but I have a choice: I can lie on my bed forever, crying my salty tears and hoping that everything that is hurting me will magically disappear, or I can think of the good things that I have in my life and be able to get up the next day to start to heal. Maybe I won’t be truly happy for a long time, but I will be something even more special: I will be alive. I will be coping, and I will be surrounded by people who I know will support me throughout this hard time. My pain is not a curse, but a gift. Yes, I may be suffering, but I am alive. I am able to feel emotion and attachments to people. And, most of all, I am able to look at a road and tell myself, “I will go down that path, and I will do this along the way” and know that because I have people who love me guiding the way, I will make it, because love will get me through anything. This I believe.

Reviews

[bluessadmood]

i know what you are talking about ,it has always made me restless and agitated as to why ,why do we in few days we are happy feeling so serene,and feel the beautiful world around us ,but always in mind the cruel and nasty things life would come with ,like the death of a dear one and other blows of life ,this thinking sometimes even tells me i do not want this life anymore ,then i will sit on the side and watch i will not get happy i do not want happiness so when life strikes hard i will not feel the heavy blow,its a strange mixed feelings ,but i may agree with you ,that love much love ,which is rare in these days will alleviate the shocks of life and you are right here ,much love makes life more palatable,i agree,still i think life is never fair with us ,i do not know really...

[fireblossom]

This reminds me of a dramatic monologue from a 1930's movie. Can't you hear Betty Davis speaking these words with a very moving musical score in the background, swelling as the speech concludes?

This is a statement of survival, self-awareness and faith. It is from the point of view of a very intelligent woman rising above the trials of life. This woman is valuable. She will continue to grow and others will be better for knowing her.

I like it.

[Erin Sky]

I really love it! Typo: "imagine" instead of "image" (here: " I cannot image continuing to live with this emotion"). I think this could be improve maybe by a specific incident that led you to believe this, or how your belief applied to a specific incident, savvy?

I love this part of you.

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There is much hope in this lovely composition, and I hope that your hopes grow and grow. Thank you for sharing.