Falling Off The Helm

I feel empty and alone,

"Knock, knock" on my Mind,

Is anyone home?

I trace scars on my arms,

Wishing for something,

For a new start.

Numbness is like a roach,

Crawling through my brain,

Invading my thoughts; threatening to erase my name.

I'm alone,

Alone

Trying to get used to it but I can't.

I can't comprehend,

That I don't need boys,

Or do I?

I said I'm done,

Done with men,

But I lied...

And I continue to lie,

Over and over again.

Am I obsessed?

That's absurd. 

Breathe.

I'm tired of heart break,

The crash anticipated after the fall,

The dust left in their wake.

But...

I love the sense of importance I feel,

The secret embracing,

The genuine smile...

Can't I just be loved for a while?

Heart set on repeat,

Mind set to sworn off guys,

Only to become broken again,

Stuck in the quicksand of lies.

I'm convinced to hope,

And after I do,

Every thing falls apart,

And I'm still not over you.

Reviews

[quinfinn]

beautifully done, and the photo array tells a story all its own. now i have to go shower, the first photo made me soil myself......acrophobia.....great work!

[Alisha Heistand]

I'm going through something rough, so this poem really spoke to me. Excellent.

[Angela]

This is a wonderful poem, I really felt it in my heart. :)