A Bit More Me

I just want to take a moment

To make a few things crystal clear

So take a minute and listen

The ones who knew me all those years back when

The few of you that are somehow still around

Have seen what's come of me since way back then

Where I was; Where I am now

Those of you who weren't there with me those many years ago

The ones that never knew of the messes I that I made

You wouldn't believe me if I said he'd be the me you've come to know

Who I am is far from who I was back in those days

I thought I was alone at first, weak, shy, and hopeless 

However, quite contrary, I was naive, lacking focus

I transformed from that naive kid into the man you know

I've moved in leaps and bounds in hopes I'd find the means to grow

I was clueless about the power I had 

As I look back at all that I squandered 

I was lonely and timid, careless and lazy 

Through motions, I listlessly wandered

If I'd opened my eyes and looked ahead 

All I desired was ripe for the taking

But I chose to sleep and ignore it instead

I knew not of the mess I was making

I was a being of mischief, a rambling rover

Nothing could get in my way 

It was fun. It was thrilling 

Just one purpose; that day

I wasn't alone back then, making messes

But I was alone as I made my way free

And alone I remain to this day, in the present

Not one found the will to come with me

We should have seen the monster drawing closer

Something tells me that we did

But we were strong. But we were clever

We were stupid. We were kids

I'm no longer stuck back there, in regression

Though, I'm the lone one that got away free

Those still alive remain to this day, in their messes

To this day neither ready nor willing

I never quit hoping they'd fight him, or run 

I never completely gave up 

But they have changed. They have settled. 

Fully captive. Mostly dead. 

As far as I made it, I still have to fight

It may keep waging on til I die 

The monsters are many, of infinite names

And can reach almost infinite heights

Safe from the beasts, I'll eventually climb

But wherever I am the war still wages 

There exists no freedom for me from my mind

But abundant are are shackles and cages

So those of you who care to know me just a little bit better 

Here's a glimpse beyond whatever little bit you can see

I'm quite certain you see that I'm more than just different 

Now I hope that you're a bit clearer on what's come to be me. 

Reviews

[Tony Jordan]

'When I became a man, I put away childish things...' comes to mind.
Realisation of our role in Life can come at any age. The most driven people just happen to know from the get-go. (one end of a linear spectrum)
Like any spectrum - there are those who may never ever realise their role. (the opposite end).
Reading that back I dont know if that makes sense.
Overall this is about a journey which has reached a juncture. Good write.