Emptiness inside me

A poem about feeling numb and alone and just wishing to feel human again .

Nothingness is every things it suffocates my heart,

this emptiness it fills me ,this absence rips apart.

 

It builds and builds intensifies but then it dose not end.

 

It makes my body contort,twist and turn and bend.

 

I try to extract this feeling,or more the absence of it.

 

In a crying ,desperate ,forsaken solitude I sit .

 

An emotion killing feeling that no one can see.

 

I scream out to heaven FILL ME ! 

 

Fill me with happiness,joy and delight. 

 

Fill me with adrenalin you get after a fright. 

 

Fill me with passion ,lust ,sentiment .

 

Fill me with love that will cloud my judgment.

 

If I do not deserve such feelings of joy,

 

then fill me with emotions that are made to destroy.

 

Fill me with anger ,fury and hate !

 

Fill me with feelings that are there to frustrate.

 

Fill me with sadness,helplessness ,pain .

 

Fill me with loneliness that will drive me insane.

 

Fill me with betrayal ,guilt and distress.

 

Fill me with feelings of any thing less!

 

Just fill me with something I just  long to feel.

 

With out emotion and affection nothing seams real.

 

Just fill me with feeling  I beg you.