December

Trueness

12-1-11

 Okay, so I noticed that I start feeling depressed when I’m at home. I wonder why.

So anyway, I still didn’t get much attention from Daniel today, so I stuck to Emil. Like seriously, I can’t go through a day without getting attention from a dude. Yup, that’s my life!

Today at recess, Mitchell was depressed again. He was walking alone and stuff. Kay, I can’t stand him like this… so I confronted him.

“Mitchell…”

“What?”

“Don’t stay mad at me,”

“Mm,”

“I don’t want you to hate me or anything…”

“Mm,”

“Okay, bye,” I walked away. He was being too dramatic. But he’s kind of cute when he’s depressed…

Okay fine… so maybe I miss him. I want him to be happy. I don’t like him or anything still… I hope.

 

12-2-11

I completely failed my math quiz. All my answers were wrong. I was literally near to tears during class. But that’s not the worst part. Today I found out some big news…

Mitchell’s gay.

Either it’s a rumor or it’s true! Supposedly he has a crush on Daniel and he thinks he’s hot. I guess when he was younger he was gay, then he stopped, and now he’s gay again. His three girlfriends (including ME!) were cover ups. Talk about being scarred for life! No wonder he freaked whenever I pecked him on the cheek.

Yeah so… major WTF moment.

Emil told me that Daniel likes me a little. Manny asked him at recess and he spazzed. I tried to pretend I didn’t notice.

So, in the hall when we met eye contact, he raised his eyebrows.

I punched him in the arm.

 

12-5-11

 Autumn was absent today. So I talked to the guys mostly, because I always got lost in Amanda and Manuela’s conversations (lol). I even talked to John Michael, and just his presence annoys all the girls. I especially flirted with Emil. It was fun. Hehe. I got mad at him once today. Everyone says that when people make fun of me, I just laugh at myself when I should be defending myself. So Emil and Brandon were making fun of me about that. But back in S.S. Emil talked to me regularly again, so I got over it. Every push comes to shove, you know?

I even forgot about Daniel today. Until recess… but I was still like “eh” about him. Girls always surround him so what’s the point of having one more chase after him?

And I SWEAR, I always see Mitchell’s face everywhere now. Then, when I went to his classroom, he walked passed me and whispered, “Rude,”

“What the hell?” I asked. So I said it back to him.

“You’re mean,” he said. I walked out.

You know what? I didn’t even care! I already tried talking to you, so whatever…

Relationships are meant to be shattered.

 

12-6-11

 You can tell Mitchell still likes me. Today in math tutoring, he kept making up excuses to walk passed my desk. But then he would get mad whenever he caught me staring at Daniel outside the window (basketball practice). He told me he isn’t gay, either. It was just a rumor. The kid just probably wanted attention.

I’m trying so hard not to like Daniel now. Too many girls like him. So far, I’m sticking to Emil… which is worse because we’re in the same class. He was trying to guess who I like today. I almost gave it away, but then he guessed Tim. I told him no and I won’t tell him until the end of the year.

If you didn’t know this already: I’m a horrible liar. I always giggle or smile or look away. So I’m surprised I didn’t let him find out.

Well… secrets are meant to be shared.

 

12-7-11

 I am sooo tired of the guys in my class making fun of me! What is their reason to be an a*****e to me?! I still don’t f*****g know what I did. They’re probably not even gonna miss me nest year. When I was the new girl in school, even ANDREW was nice to me! Now it’s like I’m not even wanted. And I swear, I can never find a perfect crush. Either he’s a jerk, or he’s sweet but likes someone else. For example: EMIL AND DANIEL.

Grrr, first time I’m saying this: I can’t wait to leave this school.

 

12-8-11

 The weather outside is frightful.

So mother did something delightful.

She made me wear dorky tights to school.

FML. FML. FML.

Heh. See what I did there? Anyway… yes, it’s true. Today was the ugliest day of my life. But in church, I got to sit next to Emil. We were so close, too. We kept talking to each other, and then I almost got in trouble.

Eh, short entry. I’m tired. Bye.

 

12-12-11

 Emil is #1 on my list right now. Even though he can be an a*s to me… I still don’t get why all the guys hate me so much.

But anyway, last Friday, in math class, Emil totally pissed me off. So I said screw it and when he wasn’t looking, I stole his pencil bag and hid it in my desk. He never noticed so it stayed there all weekend. Today, he was searching frantically all over for it, while I was laughing quietly to myself. He found it and I acted all surprised. But I guess he didn’t learn his lesson though. Because today him and Andrew were being d****e-bags. Like, so much so that I had to blink back tears. I think Emil noticed though, because then he shut up. And when I started laughing again, he smiled at me.

“What?” I asked.

“You’re laughing,” he said.

Some might not believe me. Some will. But either way, it’s all true.

 

12-13-11

 I’m so over Daniel. He’s too much of a man w***e. Too many girls like him. I’ll never have a chance.

Emil’s cute and I still like him, but… I’m developing a crush on someone new. Scott. He’s cute. (Well, Emil’s cuter.) I swear, we keep meeting awkward eye contact. Once he smiled, but I think it was because he was laughing at something. Of course, he’s another loser. Oh why, oh why must my heart sail for Loser Island? Plus, we don’t even know each other! We’ve probably only said two words to each other. And besides, what if I just think he likes me? Because apparently… no one else does.

 

12-14-11

 So… I’m walking out to recess and I see Daniel. He starts talking to me and I see Scott up front. Scott turns around, sees us… and starts walking toward us. Immediately, I think, oh gawd, is he gonna talk to us, too? But no. He didn’t. I just laugh at how Daniel was pushing him around.

Anyway, Mitchell’s still being a f*g about me breaking up with him. It’s like, dude, it’s been two weeks! How frikin’ desperate are you?

Brandon was being cute today with me. He let me use his N.U.T. day pass since I forgot mine. Then, he let me copy off his answers on the religion test. Awww… not that I like him or anything…

Ugh. Life doesn’t go the way you plain it.

 

12-15-11

 Okay, so maybe I got a little jealous when Daniel was flirting with Manny today. I’m trying so hard not to like him. Ugh!!!

So today, me and Emil flirted again. A lot.

“Just go out already!” Manny had joked. I was yelling at Emil for ditching me while recycling. He had ran off, leaving me with Connor which was UBER awkward.

I met awkward eye contact with Scott today at recess. I kind of hid my face by stroking my hair.

Sorry, I keep jumping on subjects, but back to the Daniel thing: It was at recycling club. I would be wandering in the back while Daniel and Manny were in the front. I so wouldn’t fit with Daniel. Although, something awkward did happen:

I was standing by the recycling bin listening to Mrs. Mardiat talk. Daniel was standing behind me. I didn’t know, so I backed up into him and almost fell backward. He awkwardly caught me… but then we pushed each other away saying, “Woah, woah,” We will never speak of gthis again. (-_-)

Blah, can I, like, not fall for this man w***e, please? (literally)

 

12-16-11

 Leroy told Emil that I like him. No wonder he was avoiding me all day. The dude sits in front of me in homeroom, too. It’s gonna be so awkward! I guess he freaked out when he found out, so it’s making me feel like a freak. I’ll just leave him alone and maybe he’ll forget about it. Now we’re down to one.

Scott.

 

12-19-11

 I saw Josh. At the mall. And of course, I freaked out.

Hey, that looks like Josh, I had thought. He was wearing a light brown sweat shirt and jeans. I saw his father. My stomach dropped. “That is Josh!” I whispered and behind my mother. I rushed my family into the nearest store and thought, Wait, why am I freaking out? It’s not like I like him anymore. I calmed down and tried thinking about Scott and Emil. It worked, but I still daydreamt about Josh. About him seeing how I changed. I don’t want him to remember me as the giggly girl with velcro shoes and knee-high socks. I want him to see me now as that flirty girl with converse and a different hair bow every day.

The truth is, that’s why I want Luis to have another party. So he can invite Josh and he can see how I changed. I mean, I don’t like him. Okay, maybe I miss him, but Emil’s still #1 on my list. I just don’t want to be unwanted by every guy I meet anymore.

 

12-20-11

 P.E. got rained out, so my class played silent soccer in one of the classrooms. I sat on top of a random desk and Emil sat next to me, because he ran out of option. A few minutes into the game, the ball flew between me and Emil. I reached over to catch it and lost my balance, falling on top of Emil. His desk tipped over and we ended up on the ground. Everyone gasped at how we fell. Then, I realized, I was lying on top of Emil! We looked at each other.

“Uh…” Emil said.

I woke up. Phew! It was just a dream!

Emil and I fought a lot today. Like, so much that Autumn had to split us up. He was being annoying! Probably because I told him off in reading.

We were doing work and Emil forgot his book for it. So he was asking me all the questions he didn’t know. There was one answer I couldn’t find, though, but he kept asking for it.

“I can’t find it!” I said.

“Psh, you’re an idiot,” he said.

I grew strongly annoyed, “I’m not the idiot here! You’re the idiot for not bringing your book! If you hadn’t forgotten it, you wouldn’t be asking me questions right now! So SHUT UP!”

Emil opened his mouth, then smirked and looked down. Luis was walking by and heard.

“Hey! You can’t talk to Emil that way!” Luis said.

“I don’t care! I’m tired of all the s**t he gives me every day!” I yelled. Luis sat down. Gaaaaaawwwwwdddd. Why pick on me?!

Anyway, there’s still something good that happened today. Usually, Scott goes the back field at recess. So do I… but today, I stayed in the front. And guess who else did, too? Scott! He probably noticed I didn’t go to the back so he still wanted to be around me! I was so happy! We even met eye contact like 5 times!

Omg, maybe he does secretly like me…

 

12-21-11

 This year's Christmas party was the best! We played video games, danced, and took pictures. And I saw Scott! Omg!!!! We met awkward eye contact again!!! Because he came into my classroom a lot with Daniel and them. We would look at each other, and then look down. We.            went outside and played basketball. Moreee eye contacttt. Then, he walked to the backfield with Daniel. I had to make myself distracted so I wouldn't keep looking at him.

At dismissal, I gave Dionna my leftover cookies from the party. She walked up to her friends and showed them. Scott was there, and he stole the cookies from her. I heard my name, so I walked over there.

"Oh yeah, I gave those to her," I laughed. I tapped the box of cookies when Scott gave them back to Dionna. I smiled at him and he smiled back. Everyone else started talking about abs. Daniel, apparently, had abs.

"Psh, you wish," I said to Daniel.

"Ooooh!" Scott burned. I laughed.

"Dionna has a picture!" Daniel said. She did. They were pretty hot.

"Sean's abs aren't real," Manuela said.

"They aren't? But he had that picture!" I asked.

"Nope! I saw the picture on google," Dionna answered.

"Wowww," I said.

"Sean has an innie belly-button. Not an outie," Scott said.

"Haha! And innie!" I giggled.

"Yeah..." Scott smiled. Agh! He's so cute.

We talked more. It didn't seem long, but next thing I knew, Scott was gone.

"Where did..." I almost said out loud, everyone looked at me, but I shook my head.

Two more weeks. Then I'll see him again.

 

6:42 P.M.

 "Alyssa," someone texted me. It was an unknown number.

"Um, who's this?" I asked.

"Scott,"

My stomach dropped. My face felt hot and I shook a little. I smiled to myself.

"Oh hey. What's up?" I asked.

"Nothing. What about you?"

"Eh, nothing, being lazy,"

"Same,"

Awkward pause.

"Who gave you my number?" I asked.

"Daniel. Sorry if I annoy you when I text you,"

"No no! You don't annoy me,"

"Aw thanks. You're awesome for saying that,"

I giggled to myself. Then I texted Daniel.

"Hey, Daniel. Can I ask you something?" I texted him.

"Yeah," he replied.

"Who does Scott like?"

"Oooh, you like Scott!"

"Pshhhhh..."

Pause.

"Don't tell him," I said. "What made you give him my number?"

"You like him!"

"Did I make it obvious?"

"No. I'm just smart,"

"Oh. Haha."

I switched back to Scott. We talked about Christmas break and mid-terms. There was another awkward so I switched back to Daniel. We talked...

Then...

"Can I ask you something?" Scott texted.

"Yeah. Sure," I said.

"Do you like me?"

I paused. Screw it. What the hell. I'll just tell him.

"Yeah... haha..." I said.

"Oh... because I was wondering if you had a boyfriend,"

"No. All the guys in my class are a******s,"

"Am I an a*****e?"

"Nooo!"

"Want to be my girlfriend? Sorry if I sound like a pervert,"

I wanted to jump up and down and scream for joy! But I acted calmly.

"Awww! Sure!" I said and typed a smiley face.

Awkward pause again.

"So watcha doing?" I asked.

"Nothing. Talking to the most awesome girl. How about you?"

"Awww! Thanks! No guy has ever said that to me,"

"Just trying to be the best boyfriend,"

"You don't even have to try,"

"Awww thanks," Scott said.

My #1 thing on my Christmas wishlist was a boyfriend. It actually came true.

 

12-22-11

Sweet

Cute

Optomistic

Totally  Amazing

The only guy who loves me

 

12-24-11

 "Hey can I tell you something?" Scott asked.

"What?"

"I just wanted to tell you that I love you more than anything,"

Yeah. Best. Christmas. EVERRRR!!!!<333

 

12-25-11

 "Is that her?" Daniel's brother asked. They were out while I was, but he was playing on his own hoop. I sat in the driveway alone and used my phone.

"What?" Daniel asked.

"How old is she?" His brother asked.

I couldn't hear anything. Then, "Go get her! Go get her!"

"No dude!" Daniel said.

"Hey you! Chick!"

"DUDEEEE!!!"

I pretended I didn't hear anything. I'm kind of trying not to like him. I love Scott too much.

 

6:00 P.M.

 I went inside, but I heard my dad talking to someone outside. I went to check.

"Tell her I said hi," I heard a voice say. It sounded familiar...

"What? Daniel?" I peered around the door.

"Oh hey! Merry Christmas," he waved.

"Merry Christmas..." I giggled.

He walked away, and I went inside.

"He said he's going to be outside tomorrow," my dad said.

"Okay,"

We can hang out. As friends...

Just friends.

 

12-26-11

 He never showed up.

 

12-31-11

 My New Year's resolution?

Don't be annoying and boy crazy.

Reviews

[May]

The weather outside is frightful.
So mother did something delightful.
She made me wear dorky tights to school.
FML. FML. FML.
LOL!!!
Btw, you are so good at writing storys lol. i Never knew someones life could be so interesting. You should write a book about this

[lovely-livia]

Good luck with the resolution! lol