Negative Thoughts

This is what I think about when I'm upset...

I always imagine I can do something, but I really can't
Sometimes I wonder what life would be like if I was never born
Where did I come from?
It's hard to explain the real question
I have one physical issue
I cry just thinking about it
What I can't do
It makes my look uneven
I always hide it
I always want to runaway
But where will I go?
I hate it when I get in trouble with my mom
My dad tries to defend me
And then she gets mad at him
I try to avoid having contact with him when I'm upset
But he always finds a way
I stared at a knife once when I was angry
But I winced at the pain it could cause
I can't stand the sight of blood anymore
I hate how my sister is better than me
She's into all these things
She can do everything
I can't
Jealousy?
Envy?
Or hatred?
I'd rather not answer
All the boys are in love with her
They don't want to have anything to do with me
The only time they felt bad is when I fainted during school
I notice that every time a girl likes a boy
She thinks they like her back
Those are just hopes
At least for me
Sometimes I cry myself to sleep
I run upstairs to my room and lay down on my bed
Letting my tears soak into the fabric of my blankets
My mother makes a mistake
She blames it on me
Because everything's my fault, right?
I hate being called annoying
I hate being told to grow up
I hate it when people try to change me
I hate getting in trouble
Sometimes.... I just hate my life.

Author's Note

I'm dramatic, okay? -_-

Reviews

[EllaLurve]

Aw D'":

[lovely-livia]

aww i almost cried too!

[Peppy]

I cried while writing this... T_T