I am Me

"I don't really care, you know." I told my friend as she said she was going to some Orchestra thing tonight.

She frowned a bit at me. "Come on Collette, you really don't want to go? It'll be really cool! We can dress up in fancy dresses and stuff."

I made a gagging motion before standing up and walking away to attend to other things.
People don't understand that I'm not into girly things. I'm into guy things. And I'm into Punk music. Okay, not just punk, but good music.

I listen to My Chemical Romance. Their my idol. I listen to Green Day. There my favorite band in the entire world, and their my idol too.

People say I have too many idols, and that I obsess over too many things.

I say I like good music, and when I find good music (which is getting harder and harder to come by) I listen to it over and over again. It never gets old.

 

"Collette!" I turn, seeing one of my guy friends, Sam. I smile "Hey! Have you heard Blood by MCR yet, dude?"

"What? Oh, yeah. It's awesome."

I smile.

"but that's beside the point. I'm going to a MCR concert!"

I stare..."not fair! I'm gonna strangle you!"

He waves his hands defensivley. "Wait!" he says, making me halt. "guess what."

I stare quizically..."what?"

"just guess!"

I was about to when the teacher called us to attention.

She went through her normal routine, talking about random crap I didn't care about at the moment.

As soon as she was done I turned to Sam, anxiety written all over my face.

"tell me!" I yelled.

He flinched, laughing. "I can bring a friend."

I stared. Surely he wouldn't bring me, I was of the oppisite gender...this was a thing you did with the guys... "who are you bringing?"

"You."

I spazzed. I jumped up, huggin everyone, gloating, doing whatever. I finally got something that MEANT something to me.

Not some girly thing, but a concert. An actual concert. With heavy bass lines, and good music.

 

I may not be a normal girl, into video games more than manicures, action movies more than cheesy romantic ones...but I spaz when I get something I want.

 

Just like any other girl.

 

So stop calling me a freak. A nerd. A poser.

Don't call me Lesbian, a bookworm, a weirdo who likes japenese graphic novels.

 

Call me Collette. The girl who loves music and will never STOP loving it.

Author's Note

true story (added the orchestra ticket thing though) and It's true.
people don't get that I like guy things, or that I like things that make you think. Or that when I like music, I like it forever. People call me lesbian, people call me weird. Even my friends do and they think it doesn't bother me. It does. But I don't care anymore. Because I'm me and no one will change that.