To turn away

I wrote this after a really big happening in my life.

When I was to turn away from the pain

And right back into your arms

You took my heart

And threw it in splatters on the floor

I was crushed for hours

Listening to your cries for forgiveness

I left them to wander in the air

Swirling around me like a blizzard

Of blood and pain

 

When I was to forget the other times

The times that you had done the same

When I was to leave them behind me

And begin to let you in

You said the one thing that could turn me away

And my head seemed to collapse

 

Even now

I still miss you

I still love you

I still want to hold you for life

I can't leave you

Even if I try

But it's not healthy for me

I'll come back

But only when you call for me