Eternal Darkness

Crushing, never ending, eternal

Many words to describe it, yet none are spoken

Shame, fear, hatred

Words to describe me, yet none are spoken

Permanent, devastating, tragic

Words to describe an act, yet none are spoken

Eternal darkness crushing my hopes, my dreams

No help is sought, for fear of seeming foolish, seeming overly dramatic

Feelings of hollowness, feelings of sadness, feelings of hate

No joy to be had in the moment, and no hope for joy to be had in the future

Feeling there is no future to look forward to, only more suffering

Feeling that this is my fault

Feeling that if I was smarter, more social, simply better, that this wouldn't be happening

A plan to bring an end to the darkness

Permanent, devastating, tragic, releasing

Words to describe a plan, yet none are spoken

A plan, an act, an end

No light shines

The darkness I feel does not go away, it simply leaves me, and goes to those I loved, those who loved me

Before I had no hope for the future, now I simply have no future.