Shattered World

Today is a cool spring day. The birds flapping their wings, soaring through the sky without a care in the world. Stray dogs laying in the bushes, relaxing. Sleeping, even. Upon this hilltop, there's no noise coming from anything artificial. Just the beautiful, gentle sounds of nature in full bloom.

The only object showing any sign of human development is the one lonely bench where I happen to be resting, nestled on the highest point, overlooking a small quiet town just a few miles away.

I'm not sure how long I’ve been here, but I don’t seem to really care. For once, I can be alone and finally be able to relax. I can’t remember the last time I’ve had this chance. With no one around, no one can stop me anymore.

What are you getting all worked up for? It’s not like you can accomplish such a simple task anyway.

I wish this voice in my head would shut up for once, but he’s always right. I’m a worthless excuse for a human being. Everything I do is wrong in everyone’s eyes. I’m a failure, a coward, and a piece of s**t. My life has always been s**t. Tormented, abused, forced to believe I have no use in this world and that no one wants anything to do with me. Not that I really care, anyway. Every time I attempt to make things right for myself, all of my progress collapses as though it was ash in the wind.

There’s no leaving this state of mind. Not a moment goes by that I wish I never existed. I’ve tried countless times to end it all, but I even failed at that. Just once, I wish I could be normal.

That gun- yes the one in your hand. Raise it, put it to your @#!!@#$ and pull the god da- @#÷!$@%

Today, everything is beautiful.

Pull the god damn- @$#÷@!%

For once, I’m calm.

I SAID PULL IT!!

I’ve found my peace, even in this void. This void of….nothing. No more pain. No more sorrow. No more worries.

Nothing.

Staring at my lifeless body from above, I feel nothing of it. And around me, the world seems to shrink and fade away, taking everything with it.

For once, I am happy.

Today was a beautiful day.