Nicole (I)

It's one of those long works again...

I, am confused,

So, so very,

Confused,

I, am not lost,

Not, at all lost,

Then why?

Then why do I feel such sentiments?

Followed by ragged breathing,

In this lonesome chest, my heart's containment, 

I can feel an uncertain beating,

Love, dyed my heart as something red, 

But had dyed yours a greasy colour,

From your chest-donut hole, it bled,

Omitted itching stench without flavour,

Nicole, Nicole, Nicole, why?

Why had you given up on love while pursuing it?

Nicole, Nicole, Nicole, why?

Why had you given up on life while extending it?

Why had you rejected my tender advance, 

While trying to grope us into a romance?

I don't understand,

Why must a flightless bird, fly?

While in so much hurt...

I don't understand,

Why can't you just be honest,

Do you not trust me?

I don't understand,

Why are you hurting yourself?

You don't deserve it.

Nicole, Nicole, Nicole,

Why must one hate themselves so much?

Nicole, Nicole, Nicole,

How can one dislike others so much?

The world, itself has wronged you,

No one can revoke your rights to hate it,

But you need not to wrong others too,

Not everyone is a piece of S*it,

Nicole, Nicole, my dear Nicole,

Please be honest with me,

Nicole, Nicole, my dear Nicole,

What is it that I don't see?

What has caused you to build yourself a castle of solace,

While hiding your mind in a clueless maze?

I don't understand,

But I want to, for our sake,

What am I to you?

I really want to,

Please, let me understand you,

Can you give me clues?

... Because, my dear Nicole, I love(*) you.

- Leon (December 13, 2023)

(*) The sentiments are not loverly

Author's Note

Strangely enough, I had no idea who had written this piece.
It was me who penned it, but whose sentiment was it? Was it, truly me?