"I LOVE YOU"

This is very hard for me to write, but I feel like it might help me to get it out in writing.

My family, Mom, Dad & older brother and I was the baby of the family. My parents did not express there feelings towards each other or my brother and myself. They never hugged or kissed us. I never heard the words, "I LOVE YOU."

It didn't affect me till I had a boyfriend. I didn't like him to touch me at all. It felt like he was invading my personal space.

I did get married and after 8 years, we divorced. I didn't know how to love.

When my children were born, I could feel it. I could feel love in my heart. I had no problem expressing my feelings to them. It felt natural.

This is the hard part for me..
When my Dad passed away, he never told me he loved me, but I know he did, and I never told him that I loved him. This hurts me so much.

At his funeral, I held his cold hand as I cried and told him how much I love him!

Everybody wants to feel loved and hugged.
Its a wonderful feeling when you learn that its ok to show your feelings and its ok to hug someone.

Reviews

[emmajoy]

' Its a wonderful feeling when you learn that its ok to show your feelings and its ok to hug someone.
© 2018 Donna'

Such sincerity, such deep pain exposed, such emotion. But, dear Donna, what a beautfiul survivor you are. You 've found a way of being precious, unique.. able to write what must have been yanked from your very core. The fact you have and greatly love you wondeful children, should wrap around you, make you realise how compLete a woman you are - by your own doing. Sad, sad your words and yet, so magnificent. One should be able to say I LOVE YOU to someone every day.. if only SELF in the gentlest humble way.. tis no sin there. Hugs .. Emna.

[Donna]

That was beautiful Emna, thank you so much!

[sette]

it really broke my heart when i read this, i can feel the pain, if you were just near me i will hug you a thousand times. stay strong and love your children as much as you can, hug them as much as you can and just move on from the painful past.

[Donna]

That was so sweet, thank you!

[sette]

you are very much welcome

[Aesthetic Trash]

This was heartbreaking to read, Donna. My sympathy may not be enough, but I'll give it to you anyways.

[Donna]

I appreciate that!