To be or not to be

Next lifetime just let me be,
All lost souls that noticed me,
Over killed the hope in me,
Helpful hands unnoticed, feet,
Blistering I’m growing weak,
I have questions for the runaways,
How did your feet get so strong?
Why couldn’t I tag along?
Did you leave home to be alone or vice versa, got cold and was searching for warmer days in the week?
What is life without a friend dependent on I,
Is trust nonexistent when there’s a mention of side,
Is it not selfish to love yourself before mind,
A system that houses a light linked throughout time,
“What do you want”
For you to love me like you love all,
Look in the mirror, what about this person,
“I’m always here, all you have to do is call”
Where’s the assertion? I’m looking for words because the ones I’m using aren’t working,
Never felt too good in crowds, because there’s folks around, and they’re always thinking,
Never felt too good or proud, when joyful sounds touch my heart before they’re leaving,
“Loving others isn’t a bad thing, lose the fear, it’s a state of being,
Don’t hate yourself for seeing a reality that others aren’t capable of seeing”
Am I dreaming?
“Do not confuse yourself, you don’t want to lose yourself for dreams are other realities, your are currently in a state of being”
So what is being?
“To be or not to be is the question”
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“Everything is being because it’s all existing, everything existing is living”,
Is this another lesson?
“Is death to exist and not be, or to be and not exist?
That is my suggestion”
How can you be and not exist?
“To exist is to have objective reality, a reality that exist independent from our minds,
Consciousness construct realities through imagination, that’s in space which is time,
So does the world end when we die?
Or does the experience of this reality end and our consciousness move into another reality beyond the human mind?
Would the state of being then not exist after existences?”
So let me go the distance with an analogy to make sure there’s nothing I’m missing,
Is it pain to love in a world that perceive it with ignorance, or to fully understand it and not have the experience?
“A little personal but the balance is understood”
I just needed some clarity to be reassured,
Sometimes I’m insecure,
Because there’s never been a life that’s similar,
And I see things in my life that will occur,
Pretty lady, baby don’t you close the door,
With other opportunities of loving me more,
Arkyi, Dondaycee, keep my knees from the ground,
For the times I forget to stand, and feeling less than a man should when his woman’s aroused,
By another… that feeling’s profound,
“Jealousy found, that energy is not allowed when there’s confusion around”
Where’s that soothing sound that moved me in dreams,
That had me chasing angels confusing chicken with wings,
Searching for permission in missing some things,
Like the giggle or a touch that slowly faded through change,
Like the love at first sight that never made it to name,
Those unspoken relationships that never made it to name,
Those misunderstood moments I forgave and delayed an encounter because I couldn’t forget the feeling she gave before pain,
Those hideaway hearts is where my shelter remained,
Because they kept the love pure when it was easy to drain,
It isn’t easy to contain let alone obtain a power source linked to the brain and refrain from allowing an equivalent vibration being hate, creep into the domain and create a disease of insane,
“Insanity is just as contagious as stupidity”
Please explain how to maintain love’s stability when hostility is blurred into a thin line,
Inhumane is humane when the word justify emerges in a reign of ignorance which solidifies the moment the sane become repetitive credited to an infection that dried the terrain of perception,
Unreceptive the brain becomes when love is trying to sustain which leads to strain that results in pain and hate burst as a supernova leading to actions in vain again and again,
Oh lord, the power of a woman,
If men could be before doing, we wouldn’t often do things we shouldn’t,
“It’s not a matter of wrong or right but evolving into light”
Is it odd that I acknowledge the voice inside my head,
“Just as odd as the words left unsaid before night”
This solitude thing, it isn’t enough anymore, I need something new,
I learned to love myself from red to blue,
And I just reached purple so all I see is white,
May the energy continue to rise and heal,
Frequency, continue to create shorter and steeper hills, so that I am able to write,
Documenting this experience of discovering love that’s unforgettable,
Because self hate should never be unforgivable,
That mistake is always hospitable,
The existence of love is aboriginal,
Individually being is medicinal and additional if traditional,
Through ourselves is how we connect to all, It’s an adventure to,
Dive within thyself but too many times I forget myself,
Every time I learn to stand, I project and fall like I forget my shell,
Because it’s easier to live life as light than with the body, odd of me to dismiss my health,
Physical problems, wanting love, a senseless touch, tempted to rush a manifestation of her beside me,
That’s the biggest lie when all I need is I and the being inside me,
If this is a human experience, neglecting the body is a serious action whom cause is mysterious as if the name of ID and the dimension have been misspelled,
Then what is hell?
“Death”
I thought death doesn’t exist?
“It doesn’t, it’s a reality when the state of being is no longer well”
To be?… or not to be?…
“That is a question of wealth”