The Little Girl That Will

Short hand story of my life

There once was a little girl. She was about 10 years old. She knew nothing of the world and what it could behold. She would always watch to observe the nature of others, see how she should be behaving. It never worked to her advantage; she always did the opposite anyways. Why? I could not tell you so. But as she grew up she started to see the wrong she had done to people, but also the wrong they had intended for others. Middle school came and went as had the wind. She wanted no part in remembering those three years of her life. They consisted of pestering immature people who didn't have anything better to do with their lives; though they were just little teenagers. What did any of us really have to do at that age? But she felt her karma must have hit hard during that time in her life, an unfortunate time nonetheless.

Then along came high school. The times had changed a little. She seemed to have grown a state of mind where she actually started to fully understand the extent of a conscience. Sadly enough though, it took a guy for this to happen; he was very nice to her and she never wanted to hurt his feelings because she began to experience emotions she only thought were possible in movies and fairytales. As these four years progressed she did not do the best in her academics. She was a very intelligent young lady but just never aspired to fully apply herself. But what seemed to really scare her was the fact that high school wasn't going to end after the fourth year; that she could actually be held back if she did not do something about it. She knew some things were holding her back from achieving greatness. Some distractions as she would like to call them. See her and this guy who gave her a conscience had turned into one of the biggest mistakes and lessons that she will learn. Never waste your time on someone who isn't trying to better you, only bring you down and take you for granted. 

Well this lovely lady finished high school, thankfully. While waiting to attend the last college of her choice, one of the best choices might I add, she thought she knew her goals and what she wanted to accomplish in her first year there. She figured that she would get a new start, academic wise. That did and did not happen. She didn't want to go into college with a boyfriend. That did not happen. And third of all she wanted to keep her count of three people down to a minimum, if you know what I mean. That did not happen. As the school year started she became acclimated to classes and figured out where everything was located. She wanted to make sure that all the resources were there for her and in available reach. She figured with a boyfriend that was long distance she could focus better. Little did she know there were better ones where she was about to be headed. They were smarter, more mature, and let's say more attractive in the sense of allure. She had distractions yet again.

The first semester had come to an end and her grades were magnificent had she not failed one class. Second semester came; her motivation was there but very minimal. She tried to keep up but her lack of effort and motivation got the best of her. She got questioned about whether she really had focus or even the ability to finish college. Her second semester had literally gone down the drain compared to the first. A lot of conflict with the parental and much conflict within herself had set in. She really wondered what happened and how did she let it get that bad in her classes. She truly wanted to go to school but she had a moment of weakness and the idea of taking the easy way out, she could stay home and get a job. But her pride got in the way and the idea of becoming, what she would consider, a loser were not in the cards for her. She decided that she needed to refocus. Bring herself back to what had motivated her in the first place.

She was always a stubborn one and did not like to be doubted or proven wrong. So she immersed herself back into school. She felt a new sense of insight for her classes. She took a new approach, the nerd one. Create a couple of study groups and expand the circle of people she knew. She joined a newspaper club to help have something to put in her portfolio. She was an English major and really had no experience so she thought it time she gets some. Her new outlook on the year had created pep in her step. She felt like herself again, doing numerous things at once so that she stay focused and did not stray from the ideal path for her that not only her parents had mapped out, but she too. It was always her dream since she was little to delve herself deep into the world of books, newspapers, and media. She loved to correct people so she figured becoming an editor was the best way to be right all the time and help contribute to a new way of publishing and broadcasting. She was a behind the scenes type of woman so she did not mind the spotlight being on someone else. She would be supportive. 

Although her parents were not convinced of her determination she wanted to make them proud so she continued to do the best she could. Spring came again the second year and she did not finish strong like she intended but she did come to the conclusion that she did want to do this. She found it in herself to do the best she could and achieve such good grades. She knew that there was no going back, even if her parents didn't see the increased motivated activity that she had gained. She had gone from a little girl who thought it was fun to lie, cheat, and steal to someone who has the sense to know when something is important and needs to be taken care in the proper manner. She had evolved from thinking with tons of excuses to taking responsibility for her actions. All the doubt, confusion, and frustration that transpired within her life she has finally come to a point where she could accept that all has happened for a reason.

Along the way she met some pretty amazing people who helped motivate her. A guy that increased her count to four; but she is ok with that because she intends he is the last. He showed her what a real relationship was like, she fell in love. He became her rock when she was down and out. She made friends who have the same goals and aspirations; making something of themselves in the future.  She has reconnected with her parents in showing them that she has matured and planned out her upcoming future. Ensuring them that she is not a wasted investment, the plan is still on. The fulfilling part about the whole thing is that she has learned to accept, not shun advice, accept the truth of things, and overall become a better person who instead of saying "Oh I could do that," is now saying "I will do that." And this little girl that could is now this woman that will. 

 

05/28/2013

 

 

 

Author's Note

This was the first short story i ever wrote that was successful haha, thoughts, please and thank you.