Not Her; But I

All I can say about this is I am sure a lot can relate

Not Her; But I

You tell me not to worry bout a thing
"I love you" is what you tell me and everything
But sometimes I just don't understand the way you show it
You say you want to stay with me, but the action don't fit
I want to better understand how their is logic behind your decision
See if there really is some precision
I get frustrated and irritable
Sometimes a little sad and vulnerable
And I hate to be right
And you know that I am because I hold on tight
You're with her
Which I do not prefer
I believe she does it on purpose, it never fails, it seems inevitable
An idea I cannot down, not so much edible
She guilts you by saying you don't care and complains about all her meekness
Knowing that's your weakness
You don't like others to suffer
So you try to ease or buffer
Leaving in the middle of the night
It just don't sit right
Telling me not to think too much into it, not even the slight
But you know I got insight
I can read between the lines
You can't fool me, you're like open blinds
I'm smarter than that
For Christ sakes I don't even know why you thought my mind was going to fall flat
I watch how you react to phone calls and messages
It's kind of cute how you think you're being secretive, but little do you know your sending presages
Sometimes I can see right through you
Like the Nicki Minaj song, but instead I want to again see me right next to you
I try so hard to be good
But sometimes I can get a little hood
That b***h irks me
And my gut twists and turns in me
The thought of you next to her and not I
Especially when you say it's only because you feel bad about her cry
But I trust you, that when you're with her, she doesn't make a fool of you
And get you to do what she wants you to because you didn't  fulfill her desire and now she's blue
I know you care about people
I'm not goin to knock that because it's a part of your steeple
But don't leave the one you love
For someone you can easily get sick of
I lye here being patient
And try to not become so blatant
Then hope to have you realize, I'm still here baby
Not her, but I, will be your leading lady
If I have to do it all over again to prove it
Then be it, whichever way you see fit
I'm not trying to play games
Only trying to show you I ain't the same as these other dames

It's a matter of you truly seeing me from the rest
And I know you love to put me to the test

You're just trying to feel me out

And find some things out

I can be there to ease your mind
When you need me I won't be that hard to find
I can be the solution to all your problems
As long as you let me be one of the options

We are all susceptible to flaw

And sometimes we take it out on the wrong people and mis-draw
Find a way to let me back in
Don't hold information within

You know what I hold deep inside

So communication is implied

I know I frustrate you when I ask

But I only do because you always seem to mask

Basically, we can get through anything, I want you to know

Lets not dwell on the woe

When you realize you can't be everyone's knight in shining armor
You will truly be able to indulge in our 'amore'

Author's Note

Honest comments, please and thank you. I almost didn't share it but I encourage emotional poetry so I thought it might be a little hypocritical lol. Hope you guys like it.

Reviews

[Malcolmveli]

"Telling me not to think too much into it, not even the slight
But you know I got insight
I can read between the lines
You can't fool me, you're like open blinds
I'm smarter than that"

These lines made me laugh. Women are so intuitive. My girl is like a genius she knows everything lol its just a matter of when I tell her.

I also loved how you ended the poem with amore, that sent me to the dictionary for sure

[Dominique Lambright]

Lol yes we are. We know when something isn't right or something seems weird haha. And thanks :)

[Malcolmveli]

lolyou're welcome

[Leslie Philibert]

an emotional poem with loads of energy, what I like is the strong tempo and introspective reflection. This works well, like the title, a good job.

[Dominique Lambright]

Thank you for your comments :) they are appreciated