Confidence

 

Confidence

A Poem by Dominick

 

Today I have confidence.

Confidence to finally tell you everything.

I have reconciled all my doubts and fears.

They will no longer eat at my soul

and feast on my integrity.

A new light shines through my eyes

giving me omnipotent-like vision.

My shoulders remain strong from trying to carry the world

but you are the one I need to help facilitate life.

 

My new found buoyancy has lifted my spirit.

It has taken me away on an everlasting journey

and allowed me to taste your beauty.

The words I have struggled with time after time

can now flow from my tongue

like wild rapids on a one track course to meet its inevitable destination

where it can finally sit peacefully

creating a beautiful waterfall along the way.

 

The demons have been defeated.

The dark forces that have shredded every ounce of confidence I had,

ripped me apart,

made me believe that the feelings I have for you

would never be reciprocated.

They have finally tasted the wrath of my built up frustration.

Love does conquer all.

 

My fear is gone.

Completely dissipated from my physical body

and released into the abyss of conquered fallacies.

All the falsified emotions that once filled my pensive mind,

have now been supplemented with my

everlasting love for you.

 

These relic feelings

have been there since the sands of time

and will continue to keep my burning torch lit

for all eternity.

But it is not until this moment

that my confidence has risen to the occasion

and spewed forth my true feelings that have been yearning

to be released.

I can almost taste infinite relief.

 

My cage was strong.

Keeping all this from you,

holding things back while screaming to escape.

Each time you asked how I felt I can’t help but wonder,

could you hear my emotional soldiers dying.

Could you hear their battle cries while trying to fight,

waging war on the dark forces that kept me from telling the truth.

Truth that would have given such an epiphany

if only I was strong enough to break through the prison walls

built specifically for my soldiers.

 

But now,

I have my confidence.

I have such immense strength that could only be surpassed

by my love for you.

I have the eternal wisdom of light,

acting as my beacon to guide me to clarity,

that can only be shadowed by your aura of beauty.

Your imperfections that once rattled my brain,

grew to be a gaping hole in my puzzle of life.

 

My Truth.

Oozing from those once massive walls,

walls that stood up till the ends of time

and kept me from uttering the words you so desperately sought.

Yes, the words matched the look in my eyes.

The look that beamed over the walls calling for help.

The distress signal trying to implicate the once strong darkness

that lurked around guarding the fortress of solitude.

Attempting to exhibit my captive words through my eyes

to bat out the message that feelings are there.

 

Now I seem to be surrounded by people.

Engulfed in the many faces of an empty room.

Overwhelming sounds of silence

pierce a fragile eardrum.

Silence. Silence I say.

Hush till a new day.

Nothing to lose and everything to gain.

 

My confidence now lets me say it all.

Tell you how beautiful you are to me.

To show you how wonderful you are

and how much I think of you

To let you know how much I want to spend eternity together

But most of all tell you what I've waited so long for,

I love you.

 

This is what I would say

If I was still alive today.

 

 

Reviews

[Raef C. Boylan]

Interesting read...thought-provoking as well: will all our inhibitions be lifted when we reach that stage of life? Too late. Also, the message could be interpreted as supporting the proverb 'live each day like it's your last' (because one day it will be).

"could you hear my emotional soldiers dying." - this struck me as an original and clever metaphor - it immediately conjures up visual images...and you carry it on into the next few stanzas very well.

I like how you're not afraid to use your vocabulary, without it seeming forced; you really unleash powerful forms of expression...it's impressive and inspiring.
Also, you explore things thoroughly, providing real insight into situations, as opposed to flinging out one or two stanzas and leaving it there.

Great writing...as always.

p.s.
"omnipotent like vision" (i suggest: omnipotent-like vision)

"Nothing to loose" (lose)

[Kriminal]

Emotional soldiers dying... what a great line! Another fantastic ending (I hope it doesn't spoil it for the next reader) but the best way I can describe a lot of your work is: Jaw dropping. I've also noticed a consistency with multi-level meanings throughout your work. These emotions you capture with words are real and familiar to most everyone in some form or fashion. "I can almost taste infinite relief", so can the reader as they think they are finally going to get to the grand finale, and how grand it is when we least expect it. Why isn't this stuff in a book somewhere? Instead it's on cafe wasting away to nothing. It deserves much more.

[Beautifully Tragic xPoe..]

Dominick, if havent noticed already I adore your talent in writing. This seems to be well thought out, and clever with such powerful and vivid imagery.

[Maria G.]

I love this very nice little twist at the end here. Cannot pick out any fav lines as its all very well expressed with pure emotion and honesty. It also resonated well with me as I know somebody who is displaying exactly this type of fear and may wake up oneday with such regret.
Great write.

[Imperfection]

What a twist !!

I'm still reeling under its effect!!
Fabulous.