Twenty Years Later

My daddy fucked me up big time.....this is me demonstrating fears of the damage he has and may have caused!

You sent me away to a very bad place.
There's pain in my heart, in my veins,
in the lines on my face.
I'm not sleeping, barely breathing,
imagining twenty years down the line.
Now I'm denying but really believing
that I am far from fine.
You took my hopes and dreams
and destroyed them delibertately,
right in front of me.
I picture myself in this hateful world
that you created, I hate it.
Me, the "lie down and take it" girl.
You abandoned my feelings long ago.
Walked away, hid your face,
more with every blow.
Twenty years later things are worse.
In my dreams it seems to me
you are a milignant curse.
Twenty years later I cant see
past the pain, it's still the same,
I've lost track of me.
All the things you took
I want them back, I think I lack
the strength to look.
To look is to see the damage you've done.
In my heart for a start,
you stole the sun.
Twenty years later all I can see
is darkness consuming
all of me.
I need to stop this now.
Before twenty years later
becomes right now.