No Longer

Don't see why, but here I cry...
Trying to run back to the dreams..
Closing my eyes under a cloud to forget...
It was so short, a quick hit....
No time to know what it all meant..

Not wanting to let go when I can't wait...
Not knowing how I lost that chance...
That possible fate...
Answers are silent in your quiet face...
Thoughts are diminished of that unfinished race...
Step after step the walk is longer with no place to turn...
Heart is beating for healing...
Still I let it sting, leave it to burn...
Broken with too much feeling...
Crashing to the ground after not believing...

No care in the world, ripping everything out...
Fading within the crowd...
Remembering where there use to be love...
False words with no actions....
Trapped in the mind with distractions...
Lost in tears hating every moment....
Sitting by the ocean is no longer where I want to kiss...
Sound so peaceful, but full of other pain...
Footsteps reminds me of all the broken hearts that walked in the sand...
It's where they let go, it's where they slipped away their hand....
Months of desiring at least one touch...
Ended up with a crippled body hanging on without a crutch...
Child that asked for a bit too much...

New rebel, yelling all around...
Crying to sleep, throwing possessions to the ground...
Fighting anyone who tries to understand, running to distant valleys...
Making the passion rise, letting the anger grow strong...
Stuck in the place of where it went wrong...
No final closure, no real good-bye...
Meaningless truth I try to force in a lie...
Crazy in the dark night of confusion...
Back in bed, to wake up to the same thing again...
Opening my eyes to everything you'll never see....

 
Getting over it with little heart...
There was never an ending, or a start...
Just getting there and running away...
Breaking the promise from yesterday...
Farther you go the harder it is...
Days become intense under the gold striking-thunder...
It deepens the hurt i'm under...
When I come too close I sense you shudder...

 
Weak under the sun as it reflects all my colors...
There's no more comforting covers...
It's all gone regardless if it's missed...
Hanging onto little hope that's left..
Praying to feel some happiness I once kept...

 
I can't let you go...
Right above the ocean....tripping over every rock...
Running...then I stop....
Paused at the edge with no movement or fear...
No words, nothing remaining to hear...
Birds disappear into the moonlight taking away my thoughts...
Love in the wind, grazing across cold skin...
It comes to me, drills in me with the last bullet...
My eyes turn to the side to see all the sin...
And it's the last thing I can do before I can't hold it in...
Scream...crash...explode...
Falling into a whole other time and mode...
Letting go to figure out what it was suppose to mean...
Releasing the past so it can't be seen...

There was never really a chance...
A brief love, a useless glance...
A passionate song with no one wanting to dance...
A boy running away from a girl because he can't understand what he can see..
He left it all behind....
Fell out of love to be in the back of the line...
Becoming helpless, holding up a sign...
He's paying up the fine....
Only he could've had her and he will never be mine...
No matter how much time, no matter how much time...
Back in a corner, through every darkened road, our love no longer can shine...

 

Reviews

[C.D.B]

wow, this is very over flowing of emotions...
so much pains holding inside and lonely for a person
i could already picture of it in my head
i'm so sorry that you feels that way,
i just hope you feel better someday.

Hey, its nice to be a friend with you and i hope you have a great day. Don't let anybody get you down.

[Frank F. Atanacio]

this was full of emotions, love the flow and
how you handled this write, well pen,
I give it two thumbs up