Ignoring The Closure

I’m scared to look at you as I leave
I thought I was stronger with what I wanted…
But now every part of my heart is caught in confusion of how I should really feel
I’m not sure if I loved you, I’m not sure if our connection was even real…
The look in your eyes didn’t appeal to me when our words crashed against each other’s hearts…
All I could think of was how wrong we were…how both of us were secretly broken
I thought you were my friend while you thought I was your golden token

Just let everything fade within the dust…
Maybe it was just a fool in our hearts…maybe it was just something we kept on shining when we had to let it rust
These crazy feelings never seem to reel in on time…
Can’t you see I’ve suffered enough already?
I never thought it would be you and me against the world
I always thought our love would never go further than a hug…
I thought you were a friend I could plug and unplug
But now we’re all captured in lies, falling into the most imperfect love

I’m wrapped up, all small and needy but I don’t need your comfort
I don’t need your innocent mercy on how much you care…
I want to fall underneath my blanket and shed all the lies that lead to my heart
I want to give myself a new pathway for you but I can’t unless you see clearly through
So I’m letting everything spill out upon the floor to your feet
The looks, the touches, the places…
Please don’t open your mouth until you can understand why our love has been beat…
The truth has caught up to our pace but I knew it would never be enough…
Denial reigns in every corner of the fakest love I got swept away into…

I care about the tears that fall gently from your eyes but you want me to kiss it all away……
But I just can’t do it. I can’t.

I’m sorry but you have to let everything hit you harder…
Or I would just be doing a deed in evil…
The man in you is turning into a vulnerable solider...
Ignoring the closure…ignoring the closure