Mistakes

an extremely teenagery write. just warning you

Mistakes,
S**t happens, and everyone knows
But when your mistakes follow you, it just blows

My first real boyfriend was a hands on guy
But he grabbed my leg in the math room and i wouldnt let that fly
The teacher caught him anyway and split us apart
And later that night, I broke his heart

Someone brought it up in Algebra the other day
The teacher said, "Annie, I didn't know you were that way."

I wasn't that girl, I didn't want to be like that
I thought by ending the relationship I was taking it back
I was smaller, weaker, fell for the tricks
Thinking back on it, just makes me sick

It was a year ago, but it feels like a lifetime
And I don't want to hear about it, No, it's not fine
So many mistakes, Like hanging out with your guy friend
The one who told you he liked you, again and again
Nothing ever happened between him and me
People won't forget about that time in the tree

I climbed up that tree to hide, get away
But he followed me up there one day
The coach walks past with his wife and sees us
WE WEREN'T DOING ANYTHING, Jesus
But that gives everyone free reign to laugh and tease
Makes me feel all sluttish and sleaze

More mistakes. Like the sickly sweet puke in my room
Told one person, and everyone found out real soon
Man, that Annabelle Lee's a hot mess
Wonder how she manages to even get dressed

It was just a mistake, everyone makes a few
But you point out others to take attention off you
Make yourself look better, look clean
But beating someone down with their past is just plain out mean

I get teased quite a bit
About being a good kid
Back in the day, I had no friends
Just family and books, and shelves snd bookends

Good little Annie and her straight A scores
Don't invite her to anything she's just a bore
She's no fun, she don't even talk
But now I'm loud and funny, I rock

And the people who always pushed me away
Are trying hader and harder every day
Can't remember what they did or said
But I remember everything. All locked away in my head

I used to hide in my room and cry
Because I had nothing to do with my life
I felt like I would never fit in
Kept waiting for my life to begin

And now I' m not sure if it has or not
I keep waiting for the skeletons to stop
They're in the closet, rattling away
And sometimes the kids bring them out to play

Annie, why'd you do that?
Annabelle, why'd you date him?
Belle why didn't you go back?
Treeclimber, were you at the park again?

I get pissed off and ask them to stop
But they're high school kids, assholing's their job
I wish that i could take a break
And undo all of my previous mistakes

Reviews

[Abby]

Life is full of mistakes. I can't count how many I've made with going through so many different phases of my life. I'm in my late twenties now, and I still look back at some of it, especially from high school, and just shake my head and wonder what in the world I was thinkin.

Just remember, though, you are only human, and we all make mistakes. Some are just bigger than others, and we just have to learn from those to help us with our future choices. Don't let other peoples opinions on what you've done change anything, because their opinions on YOUR life won't change anything, but your opinion will. Be happy with yourself, and your life, and move forward Anna. You're an extremely smart young woman.

This was a great write, and something that I could definitely relate to. :) Great job.

Lee.

[Annabelle Lee]

Thank you! I know that there will be more down the road, I know that these are probably going to fade out and make way for bigger, better, more serious mistakes in the future... hopefully the far future. But this is now, these mistakes are today's and high school kids can be just plain out cruel sometimes.

[Abby]

Yes, high school kids are mean a lot of the time, but you have this. :) You are strong, and you can do whatever it is that you set your mind to. :) Just believe in yourself, and hold your head high, and just ignore the ignorance of those that surround you, and say things that make them look like the fools. :)

[Jamie Cook]

That was awesome and really a good read. Hmmm what to say, well for the first part I'm just like daaaaaaaaamn....that sucks booty! But then the impact was....very regretful. Mistakes suck, and its worse when it causes a misunderstanding...but it was great read, and relatable in the sense that we grow up with our mistakes and can't really shake them off.

[KAOlmsted]

This was a really terrific write. And hey, listen, if you can keep the regrets down to just the few you've mentioned here, you're ahead of the game ;-) But, speaking realistically now, you've got a lot more mistakes coming up. How you handle yourself in situations will say a lot about your character. I sense you know that, though. Really well done, Annabelle.

[Annabelle Lee]

thank you!

[KAOlmsted]

Of course!

[Joanna Johnson]

Good poem, I liked how you reflected on how people judged you just because of some mistakes. It isn't fair when people do that. This poem told a story -- very impressive, a little bothered by the language (especially the Lord's name in vain, made me cringe) but other than that, good poem.

[Annabelle Lee]

my apologies. but my words are my words. and people who didnt like it were what caused me to close this account. I mean no offense but i write like i feel. and i feel what i write.

[Joanna Johnson]

know what you mean. like you I say, I write what I feel too. I try to be nice, but some people don't like it if I express my christian faith, oh well. so yes, I can respect that - write what you feel.

[icelandicblue]

I say this with great sincerity you are too young for regret. I love reading your poetic soul.

[Annabelle Lee]

ten bucks says i love writing with it more. thanks

[John]

I had a rough ride through high school. I wore a head-gear for a year and hung out in the library my freshman year. But after that summer, I realized something I wished that everyone that age could realize: the only thing that matters is the present. Not the past, not the future, but now. By my senior year I had found a huge group of friends that I shared magical memories with that I'll never forget. I just wish I'd spent more time with them rather than worrying what people are thinking about me because I hang out with them.
I also made a lot of mistakes in high-school, haha, punk rock and anarchy was what I lived by, and it was easy to get mixed up with the wrong people. Remember, people will use you, but karma's a b***h. :D

[Annabelle Lee]

thanks a million!

[Annabelle-adonna]

There's nobody who hasn't made mistakes, there's just people who are better at hiding them because they're too embarrassed to live with them. It's human to wish you could go back and undo certain things but your decisions, good and bad, are what make you you.
That said, this is a great poem that all teenagers who have been branded outsiders for being 's****y' or 'nerdy' by people who barely know them can relate to (myself included). I love the raw emotion and honesty that you put in your writing.
And yeah Annabelle, you rock!

[Annabelle Lee]

thanks, Annabelle!

[quinfinn]

growing up is a true life drama and can be a royal b***h personified. for one thing, teenagers are cruel and self centered for the most part...me, me, me! sounds like you have matured beyond your friends and they are now jealous of that growth. damn the torpedoes, full speed ahead! you are awesome, Annabelle Lee....keep on rockin' in the free world!

[Annabelle Lee]

thanks

[quinfinn]

welcome

[Frieda P]

Thing is we can't undo our mistakes or go back in time...it's all a learning process, and the s**t that seems to loom overhead now, won't be such a big deal in time to come. Love your brutal honesty in all your writes. Keep your head up Annabelle Lee. You rock!

[Annabelle Lee]

thank you!

[The Rock And Roll Cowbo..]

We all make errors, especially in our youth, hopefully the older you get the less you make... the main thing we need to do is laugh at ourselves or life will get the best of you.

[Annabelle Lee]

Thank you!