I apologize to all those who thought they knew me.
I present myself as a mere shadow of my true being.
I silently watch over everyone, being the guardian angel of sorts.
I stand in the background and when I disappear I hear the whispers,
asking if someone is missing.
I calmly listen to all your drunken love tirades,
not with the girls, but sitting before the toilet saying
"You know man, I love you."
I present myself as a caring friend,
a responsible adult,
a good buddy,
a polite co-worker,
and a helpful stranger.
While it may seem I am all of those,
I am none.
I am selfish.
I simply don't want to see another friend die needlessly.
I act the way I do so I wont have to feel pain.