Thoughts

You are not my enemy,
You are not my friend,
You're a peaceful dark thought
That makes all of this end.

You make me fall,
When I want to stand.
Like my life is a sentence
That ends with and.

An everyday part of life,
Like a mental health disorder
My streak of good days
Get shorter and shorter

Darkness and depression
Should be my middle name
It's not the worlds fault
Only I am to blame.

Life is so lovely,
So peaceful and nice.
My two sided mindset
Is like fire and ice.

You are not my worst enemy
You are not my best friend
You're a dark scary voice
That's says its all pretend.

Argue with a mirror,
Convince yourself you're wrong
Say life's worth living,
And that you were right all along.

To live or to die;
To be dead but still alive.
Some days I say no,
Some days I thrive.

I look at her, shes beautiful
And all I do is think,
I'm like a boat without nails
And all of us will sink.

You can be the nails
And I will be the boards
But the pain I feel inside
Is sharper than swords.

How do I look at you
And tell you how I feel?
When my heart's as hot as fire
But my soul's as cold as steel.

So here I go again
Pretending life's okay
Believing my own lies,
I live another day.