Spoonfed Lie

I have been a living enigma since the day of my conception,

and have fallen under all of your lies and deception. 

I know now to not leave myself open,

to never take pride in receiving that petty token.

With two feet firmly planted on the soil where I grew, 

you must understand there was never room for two.

So I ripped you from the chambers of my heart, 

saying "dear we must depart."

And you pleaded, you moaned, 

you sighed, and you groaned.

"We must find a solution, 

take pride in our contribution!" 

"What contribution?" I asked.

"There is no way that this could last."

So for months I have been plagued with these horrific dreams,

of you: fervently tearing me at the seams.

"HOW LONG WILL YOU LINGER?!" I have shouted into the void,

the one that brought you, that left me destroyed. 

So with two feet I walked miles with my heart on my sleeve, 

understanding that this would soon become something I had to believe. 

I sank to my knees after miles, distraught, 

"What burden is this? Has everything been wrongfully taught?" 

Til' one dreary night, an apparition arose,

and I swear it was you, your ghost I suppose. 

"I'm sorry for all of the pain in the past,

I assumed that all of that would last."

And dejected you vanished into the still, night sky,

but to this day I spoon feed myself the very same lie.

Author's Note

"For every lover you have ruined
I dug my nails into its flesh
And every life that you have taken
Slammed it's head against the brick
It's blood poured out onto the pavement
I stirred it in with dirt and spit
I will take a part of you
I made mortar from the mix
Tore every organ from its body
Broke it's bone and fashioned bricks
I laid the mortar in between
I made a throne for hope to sit."

If you have an questions concerning the last line, inbox me about it.

Reviews

[Saifer]

There is a great conviction behind these words, one that humans decide as a retaliation to the pain they've been caused. We are born alone, and we leave this world alone. A harsh truth that enforces acceptance upon itself. But as for the inbetween, that's not the case.

The double rhyme gives off a very romantic aura and has led me to question your inability to string rhymes together. The thing I like about this piece is that although you're speaking for yourself, the reader feels related and close to your words. There's lies a higher form of empathy between the lines. It causes the reader to reflect on similar experiences, even though they might not be quite the same.

And I don't know if you've noticed this, but it's probably my OCD kicking in (joking). When you look at the two last words in each part of the rhyming couplet, they seem to form a meaning.

1-"conception deception"
2-"open token"
3-"grew two"
4-"dreams seams"
5- "void destroyed"
6-"past last"
7-"distraught taught"

It sounds stupid, I know. But I wanted to point it out.

[Neville]

Blimey, I found this work of yours by accident & thoroughly enjoyed reading it but must admit, some of your expressed insights, experiences and or opinions confused me a little. That said, I do not want to be critical or at all confrontational and would welcome your response E.A

All Good Things,

N

[Karl Woof Junior]

this is seriously jumbled at the end, maybe you put too much feeling into it, maybe quotes belong in stories, im sorry i just didn't get it

[Glen Yumang Manese]

I was waiting and waiting to see where the title fit in... to all of this within the write... and you save it for the last... You got a touch for prose... this also have a rhyme scheme... thrown in there... I like how you convey emotions and fight with them... a protagonist in your work... Only in the ending do you tell us that emotions tend to get the better of you... I could be wrong, but that's what I got from this verse...

[nihilistictablelamp]

Entirely true. My emotions leave me bewildered and do tend to get the best of me, leaving it difficult to push through the mess and constantly think back on my decisions -- whether it was a good choice or not. Thank you for reading. -bows-

[Lydia Shutter]

Sometimes lies are easier to swallow than the truth, absolutely true. A very well written poem. Lydi**

[Anand Sehgal]

"..but to this day I spoon feed myself the very same lie.," the eternal trap we fall into .

deep thoughts well penned :)

[Sami Khalil]

"HOW LONG WILL YOU LINGER?!" I have shouted into the void,

the one that brought you, that left me destroyed.




So with two feet I walked miles with my heart on my sleeve,

understanding that this would soon become something I had to believe.




I sank to my knees after miles, distraught,

"What burden is this? Has everything been wrongfully taught?"




Til' one dreary night, an apparition arose,

and I swear it was you, your ghost I suppose.

Wow. This was imaginative at the end and good all the way through. We have a lot of talent on this site now...Bravo

[nihilistictablelamp]

Woah. Coming from someone like you who strictly writes poetry, I'm really honored. I'm glad you took the time out!

[Sami Khalil]

Any time. My pleasure...:)