Understatements

I don't need a description for my misplaced thoughts collected and dragged into a simple paragraph.

                                                             "Should I kill myself, or have a cup of coffee?"

                                                                                          - Albert Camus 

I promise you that I am unpretentious. I am so utterly wrong in my calculations that I have tried so fervently to make it seem as though I have everything so perfectly manicured in this garden. But it seems that this garden is composed of sheer plastic and tarnished silver as you venture deeper into its heart. And that is why I implore you to look onward, to not enter such a broken place. Consequently, this place seems to be my heart. I often ponder that I must have been set upon such a cruel world just to solve a plethora of predicaments, and that despite my good intentions, they become mangled and augmented into something vicious and I am thrown into a bewildering state of flustered emotions and abhorrence towards the misconception. But is that not what I am? An understatement? I believe that everyone has at least, during one time in their life, been an understatement. And I often plead with myself to make the best of a wretched situation and give the most positive response I can possibly give, despite the dwindling amount of meager hope and negativity pulsating from the malignant structure. I also strongly believe that everyone is in some way, shape, or form, absolutely malnourished. Bereft of good intentions, filled with horrid luck, or sublime love gone sour. And how do we rid of this? Do we wait until an ulcer comes forth and ultimately encumbers and consumes our whole being? We can try. And that, my dear, is truthfully all I know. 

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[TheSweet]

A fellow pessimistic writer is always a welcome read. Personally, I would have presented this a little different, broken it up a little cleaner and such - seeing as it's such a short piece.
However, the message is slightly cryptic to represent someone's mind, but clear enough to allow people a grasp of their way of thinking - so it's nicely written in that respect. Life can be a struggle - but only if you make it so... would be my response.
Thanks for sharing :)