Who could I tell?

I really had a hard time deciding to post this .. however it makes me feel more confident so *shrugs*

Who could I tell ?

That my life is literally a narrative story

Who could I tell ?

How heavy this lonely feeling is to me and my heart

Who would actually care ?

If I jumped off a 10 story building with a bible in hand crying

Who would actually care ?

If I told you I believe I know the answers you've been seeking

Why am I not mentally into my life right now ? Where am I wandering off to ? Why do I feel like I'm honestly better off dead ? Maybe then I'd be free from this cruel world . This isn't a f*****g suicide note or a look for attention mostly cause I should be the only one reading this .. however I feel I should be further in my life than I am now and these thoughts haunt me as well as me being w out someone I can trust to talk to AND they honestly understand my perspective. That's really all I'm asking for GOD . I dislike asking for things cause everyone in this world prays to you just to ask for things or even complain . I don't know what I want anymore . I feel you know what's right for me and I trust in that more than I'll ever know ...