Always Yours

 I lost a real good friend today and I've been thinking a lot about you lately-

so that really don't surprise me,

you were the only one I ever had in my life who never cheated or lied to me

and now I'm left alone in this empty world wondering why or how it wasn't me

who left this Earth but I guess it was God who decided that was how it had to be today,

but hey, it was you who taught me how to see the best in things, dog,

and for that I have to thank you, if it weren’t for that support I think all the pain and hardship you helped me get through would have got to me and then where would I have been?

Every time my world came down around me you were right there to help me pick it up again,

I just wish I could have been there in the end to do the same for you

so you could die the way you lived and pass away next to a friend.

You helped me through all of Tammy's bullshit and all the nights I sat and cried over Sevan.

You just sat and listened to me and you always made me feel better even though you never said much in return because all I really needed was your presence.

One of the only ones to watch me rap and write and just let me be me,

for who I was, what I was, and where I was at at any time,

and if I was serious you would never laugh, just hear me spit and I loved you for it, that was it.

Never had to worry about you criticizing me or scrutinizing because you were always right beside me, through thick and thin and you always listened,

and to think this is the first thing I've ever written about you, f**k it's like I never did you justice.

So here it is right now, straight from between my lips, I just ripped it from my heart and I refuse to edit it or vet it for anyone who want's to read it,

this is real, this is true, just the way you would have heard it.

But I was thinking about you when you shut your eyes on this world, homie-

I hope you know that, I was walking on the bike path thinking how you were the only one to really know me and how it hurt me that I could never hold you the way you held me in place because you never really opened up your face and spilled your s**t to me.

Strong headed, and never wanted to be the one to cause another's headache over your hard times so you just never said it.

Now there's another rough patch and I just keep expecting to open up the door and see your face ready and willing to help me but I need to come to terms with the fact that you aint coming back and that's upsetting.

It was beautiful while I was strolling, dog. A rare day around here. A couple clouds but not the slightest hint of fog, the sun was going down and the fading blue was outlined in pink which reflected on the water, man, and now I just have to think if you aint died for a reason then why did God paint this perfect thing right now and put it before me almost as if to tell me not to have regret, not to stumble, not to fret, and I didn't even find out that you had died just yet, but I had a feeling while I walked and I cried when they told me because I realized right away, it struck my head,

You died well just like you lived, homie, that was your sunset.

If only I could have told you while you were around how much you meant to me,

you always showed people love why you think we called you Booda?-

Who'da thought it would have been like this,

you should have heard the way people spoke of you, homie, you were the s**t,

and every time somebody mentions your name people like me will remember it,

So whenever this months comes to and end I'll pay you tribute with a fist,

to my heart, to the end, dog, because I loved you from the start,

Booda, you gave me everything and when you left our world you took part of it with, so it fits,

August thirty-first, don't forget, he moved on during a sunset so this day is his.

Reviews

[Legion]

Wow! Incredibly intense. Yea, there are errors and stuff like that, but damn if this isn't what writing should be about. Making the reader feel! You hit that spot on. Sorry about your loss (which now feels like mine as well). Well done.