You Arrived

When you just seem to reach a state of equilibrium, something always intrudes to throw you off your path of stability. It has arrived.

- “Just as I had shut you out,
just as I had exiled you from my thoughts,
you crept seamlessly into my mind as I dreamt,
spreading dark waves of infiltrating awareness
of my own emptiness with your absence from my life.
Leave me feeling alone and abandoned,
not but the faint glimmer of our last encounter left ingrained in my mind.
Etched eternally upon the blank pages of my intrepid log of existence,
written in the language only read by the broken of heart,
and lost of soul.” -

And now “you’ve arrived”.
Lucky to be one of the few
who through your love they survived,
elegantly perversely attempting to coerce me,
hope to god my heart is permanently “revised.”
And I f*****g loved you,
but you act as if you hate me,
attempted so harshly to persuade me
to give more love than you ever f*****g paid me.

So loud echo through the mountains,
Make sure they will all know,
which way they get to all go,
which way the have to follow,
now that “you’ve arrived”.
And they all have to know
about the deceptions “on which you thrived.”
And I pray that, that s**t will never see the light of day.
Ten steps ahead in the head of every word you could ever say.
And your lost,
look down around and walk home in every which way at the same damn time,
and when you find your way back everybody will know that “you’ve arrived.”
Because it really isn’t hard to miss it,
they way you try and solicit and elicit the love all the f****n’ mis-fits.

And now I’m just trying to deal with it,
huddled freezing cold in the shadows of all my burnt bridges.
Frozen on the edge of the city with my own river running near me.
River of guilt,
filled with shame,
riddled by the memories of all the time I played your stupid f*****g game.
And when the feeling creeps cold across my back I know...

“That you’ve arrived.”

Author's Note

As usually. what you think