5. Kiss Me, Love Me

Chapter Five: Raven

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  I sat in my hospital bed with JJ by my side, like he always is after-school and on weekends. Its Monday of the long weekend and apparently I'm to have a visitor at 3:30pm today. I wonder who it is.

 

At half past three, there was a knock on the door. JJ got up to answer it. A girl stood in the doorway. She looked about our age, maybe a year younger. So JJ invited her in and she nodded in thanks and walked over to me.

 

" Um... Hi... I'm Lillian, I'm in your history class." The girl says shyly

I look at JJ and he gives me a surprised encouraging look, meaning tell her I knew that.

 

" Oh yeah, of course. I know." I replied in a jumble

She smiled weakly. " That's okay. I'm very quiet and sit in the back."

JJ turns to look at her. " Sooo... Lillian, what can we do for you?" JJ asks awkwardly

Lillian's face flushed with red. " Well um... I-I brought this for you Raven!" Lillian holds out a basket that has a teddy bear and some other stuff. " I-It's a get-well basket."

 

She handed me the basket. I smile up at her. " Thanks Lillian, that is very thoughtful of you."

She shakes her head quickly. " Uhm... It-it's from the history class." I look at JJ again since he's in history with me and he just shrugs.

I gesture to the chair next to JJ's. " Take a seat." I say to her and she quietly does. We talk for ahwile until she starts to fidget in her seat.

 

Before she leaves she stops at the door and looks straight at me, she blushes again. " Raven, I-I just wanted to tell you... I-I really like you!!" and then she runs out, leaving me and JJ with our jaws dropped.

 

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"Uh, JJ, did she say what I THINK she said?" I stammer

" Uh-huh." Is his shocked reply

A girl has never confessed like THAT before. What shocked us most, wasn't the confession, but the way she was so red and the way she ran out after telling me.

 

" That girl is tenth grade, it says she was a wiz in history so she was bumped up a grade there." JJ says later on as we look up Lillian Baker on the school website. I take the bear out of the basket and look at it. It's light brown with a black bow tie.

 

" Not as cute as the one I gave you when you had that fever." JJ said in a cute pouty way

 

I laughed " No, it's not." The one JJ gave me was black with a red bow and vibrant green eyes.

 

I looked at JJ. He was looking right at me with his beautiful blue eyes... and... No! No! No! Stop it Raven! You can't think like that!

 

" Hey, maybe I should ask Lillian to prom. She likes me and it's not like anyone else would ask someone so shy." I say

 

JJ just looks at me. His eyes feel like they're burning into me. " Wh-what?" I ask him nervously.

 

He's never looked at me so intensely before. I look back to the bear quickly, my heart races so fast I believed it might run away.

 

 JJ walks over to me and comes down to my level. His face was so close to mine I felt his breath on my nose. My heart continued to race. He got closer and closer until our lips just brushed together. But before anything else happened he whipped away and stood with his back to me.

 

"JJ? A-are okay?" I asked hesitantly

 

He doesn't speak, he just grabs his bag and leaves.

 

'JJ?' He didn't come back the next day, or after school for the next two days. I began to get scared that he'd never come back, that our friendship was somehow over.

 

I finally got out of the hospital on the next Sunday and went back to school on Monday. I didn't notice then the way people looked at me. My friends greeted me with hugs and cheers. The scar on my chest still throbbed a little here and there, but other than that I was fine.

 

They all seemed so taken-in with the scar on my right arm. Weird-o's. I thought. I didn't see JJ that morning, no one had seen him. But when I got to math class he was sitting in his usual spot. So I took the seat next to him, like always. He was looking out the window. Just then I heard snickering from behind us. Brittany. When I turned around they all gave me piercing glares and turned away. So what? I couldn't careless about those girls.

 

JJ didn't say anything all of class. When we got to history at the end of the day, I watched the blushing Lillian enter the room and glance up at me and go red in the face again. After class I decided to go up to her and ask her to the prom.

 

Mrs. Cooper gave us a pop-quiz and an assignment on ancient Egypt compared to modern Egypt. It took the rest of class to get half the assignment done, the rest was for homework.

 

At the end of class I got up without saying anything to JJ. When I walked over to Lillian she started rambling on how she was sorry for running out the other day.

 

" Don't worry about it." I told her and she claimed down.

" So, Lillian, I was wondering if you'd go to the prom with me?" I asked her with a smile

 

"M-m-m-me?" She stammered

I nodded " Yes you."

 

Before she could reply JJ grabbed me by the arm and gave me a harsh look and just dragged me out of the classroom and the school. I could barely keep up with him without tripping. By the time he finally slowed down we were at the fountain in the park.

 

" Goodness JJ..." I said panting " What's wrong with you?"

 

Not saying a word he took hold of my wrist and pushed me against the fountain wall and kissed me.

 

" Wha-?!" I couldn't say anything, I could barely breath!

He pushed himself closer into me and ran his hand down the side of my face with his other hand. The kiss seemed like it would never end, and to be honest, I didn't care if it never ended. I closed my eyes, my face was all red and my body burned. When he slowly pulled away I was out of breath again. I looked up into his eyes.

 

" I love you Raven." His words ring through my ears

 

" I've loved you ever since then." Then, I knew what he was talking about.

 

" If this is a dream, I never want to wake up..." I tell him, still looking into his eyes

 

" It's not a dream..." He whispers into my ear and he kisses me again.

 

My world swirls around. The one I have loved for so long loves me too. It's a dream come true. Chances of something like this happening are 1/10000, and I' that luckily one.

 

" I love you too JJ." I tell him in between a breath.

 

The kiss lasted and lasted. It was interrupted rudely by a group of guys walking by.

" Woe!!! Dude! That is sooo wrong!" One of the yelled in disgust and another whistled

 

I shrank down, embarrassed.

" Don't listen to them Rave... You don't chose who you fall in love with." JJ says to me

He right. Who cares if people don't like it, it's our lives and we'll do what we want.

 

" Yeah, your right." My world just couldn't get any better than this. Everything was perfect. Finally, after years, my darkest secret has been shared with him. It's no longer my darkest secret.