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i appreciate everyones reviews and such... im just miserable right now, trying my best to place up a front of pure happiness, when reality is im dying inside... how long will this death i be able to hide...

it seems as though these people do not hear me

so many say he doesnt deserve me

there is better out there for my daughter and i

perhaps this may be true

but then why is it that i cannot move with out him?

I care for him way to much

he is like a heart worm

i cant get rid of him,

by myself

but i fear he will also be the death of me

i care to much to let him fall

to much for anyone to fall for that matter

i am a person cursed with a helpful nature

a caring nature

being such i cannot just leave anyone to failure

add to that the fact that i love him

and have already delt with so much

and perhaps some one may understand

why this man i hate, i love, and i stay with

i wish better for my daughter and i

yet it is us against so many others

people tell me to just move on

but no one understands

i live with him, no place else to go

him and his family are like an army

an army, against me, and a three month old baby?

this is not fair

so what am i to do?

live in the streets with her,

just to leave him?

yet at the same time

i want to escape his grasp

but i know for now

this is not possible

i am stuck to him

no matter what he really feels/loves

i am stuck to him

i feel like the man in the picture

stuck to this cloud

the rain continues to pour

but i cannot escape it till i let go

but that cloud is my only shelter

so what am i to do now?